Breaking down.... Once again! >.<

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Why does this always happen to me?!? I start to feel better, to feel normal, to feel like I am able to face the world. And then something small triggers me and I lose all self worth and self confidence again.
Maybe I was only fooling myself that I was happy these past few weeks. But tonight everything thats happened lately just got to me. I feel so small and worthless, insecure and lost. I cause other people pain and I hate myself for that.
Ugh.... I just thought I was getting better, now I realise that was not the case.....
I'm so sick of this.

[Gumleaf]

i think you have proved to yourself over the last few weeks that you can get up and above the muck that affects aspects of your life. getting through and beating the depression is a harder process, but i promise you that in time you will beat it. but eve, i can tell you that you have made a positive step here because you have proved that you can make steps to stay positive and have a positive outlook on life, because thats what i have seen from you in the last few weeks. what i'm trying to say is don't feel discouraged, but take the positive out of this because you are making inroads to beat this.
luv ya sweetie. :hug:

[Nostrum]

happens to me all the time, usually when i feel that i've lost control over my life so much that i just go rapidly downhill.
just keep strong because in the end, everything will be fine, retrace steps, or try fixing what causes the breakdowns, if its something someone else does, talk to them about it. just dont stay down, pick yourself up and do something you like, take a walk around the park or something :)

[Aspiringanonymous]

Yes, it happens. It will happen; because the past has shaped who we are today, small traces of every gone-by detail will linger, never fully going away. However, you know now that your relationship with it has changed - it no longer has as much power and influence over your long-term path and dominate state of mind. With time and distance, its power will continue to fade. But it is a lengthy process.

When you feel close to succumbing to these forces, just remember, that you have already shown yourself to be stronger than it by breaking free in the first place. The initial step is the hardest to take - after that, things can only get easier.

May you find inner peace soon.