Kinetic
December 25th, 2009, 03:44 AM
bare with me this is a long story but i really need some feed back
this is whats happened since 2 weeks before break... up until now, i needed to vent
lets say i got a friend named joe and joe "mysteriously" added me on myspace, he thinks im cute andd he asks for my number, nervous at first he later on asks for my number and we become best friends and i'm ready for the next step, then he tells me he has a boyfriend but he still wants to go out because we were such good friends n stuff. so i wait about a week and he tells me that he's broken up with his boyfriend, excited as i was he told me he was gonna stay single forever THEN he tells me he's leaving fresno, then he changes his mind while getting arrested, when he gets his phone back, he calls me and tells me that hes gotten a new boyfriend after promising me we were going to go out. then i kinda gave up, then he told me that his new boyfriend was leaving next week and then we would be forever together etc etc.
TURNS OUT he doesnt leave and there still together. Everynite he tells me how much he loves me and how it will be when were together, swapping pictures etc etc. it goes like this up until monday, where im having a bad day and im extremely depressed and angry, joe keeps calling me and being a jerk, in return i act like a jerk back and then he acts like i broke his heart. after then things were rough for a couple days joe keeps talking about his boyfriends the whole time, about how much he loves him, that he's his soulmate, that he's his everything, you would think i woulda gave up by now but i thought there was still hope. after tonite i get fed up after he says "we will never be together" then i tell him "your always talking about your boyfriend, everytime we talk all you talk about is him him him, you make me feel like i could never measure up to him because hes so -great- i feel like i have to be someone else jus 2 be with u, last night u told me he was your soulmate and hes your everything! idk what i am to you, your like bein a jerk and rubbing the fact that hes ur bf in my face, i ignored it cuz i loved u but if ur gonna sit here and talk about how people HAVE to measure up to your standards and "compatibility tests" then U are the one who shud put urself in my shoes... you call me when ur ready to be with me or don't call at all
this is whats happened since 2 weeks before break... up until now, i needed to vent
lets say i got a friend named joe and joe "mysteriously" added me on myspace, he thinks im cute andd he asks for my number, nervous at first he later on asks for my number and we become best friends and i'm ready for the next step, then he tells me he has a boyfriend but he still wants to go out because we were such good friends n stuff. so i wait about a week and he tells me that he's broken up with his boyfriend, excited as i was he told me he was gonna stay single forever THEN he tells me he's leaving fresno, then he changes his mind while getting arrested, when he gets his phone back, he calls me and tells me that hes gotten a new boyfriend after promising me we were going to go out. then i kinda gave up, then he told me that his new boyfriend was leaving next week and then we would be forever together etc etc.
TURNS OUT he doesnt leave and there still together. Everynite he tells me how much he loves me and how it will be when were together, swapping pictures etc etc. it goes like this up until monday, where im having a bad day and im extremely depressed and angry, joe keeps calling me and being a jerk, in return i act like a jerk back and then he acts like i broke his heart. after then things were rough for a couple days joe keeps talking about his boyfriends the whole time, about how much he loves him, that he's his soulmate, that he's his everything, you would think i woulda gave up by now but i thought there was still hope. after tonite i get fed up after he says "we will never be together" then i tell him "your always talking about your boyfriend, everytime we talk all you talk about is him him him, you make me feel like i could never measure up to him because hes so -great- i feel like i have to be someone else jus 2 be with u, last night u told me he was your soulmate and hes your everything! idk what i am to you, your like bein a jerk and rubbing the fact that hes ur bf in my face, i ignored it cuz i loved u but if ur gonna sit here and talk about how people HAVE to measure up to your standards and "compatibility tests" then U are the one who shud put urself in my shoes... you call me when ur ready to be with me or don't call at all