Just so confused.

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As of late I have been having mixed emotions about some of my friends. They swing from "never come near me" to "best friend ever" to neutral. We always hang out an chill, they're both into drugs and shit and so am I. Or so I thought.

I went with both of them to watch one get a tattoo. While I was there I kept getting pressured to pitch on a teenth with one of my friends. (One got busted and can't smoke weed because he's on probation) I said no because I needed to save up for LSD when we go to the cabin one of them has. (Stupid I know) They just wouldn't stop but I wouldn't budge. The insults started raining down, mainly Jew-related as I'm good with money. (racist I know, I didn't ask for it) Eventually they stopped and we were just chilling. Everyone was talking and I was beginning to realize how stupid everyone in there was.

I began to wonder what the hell I was doing there with these morons that only live to take up space on the Earth. I've come to the conclusion that I only hang out with them because I have no other friends to speak of, and they live really close to me. I just wondered if anyone had some opinions on what to do. I've cut myself off from them before but I was really lonely and bored all the time. I just don't know what I should do.

I put this here rather than Friends and Family because the problem is really drug-related.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

You probably already figured this out, but: any friend who is going to pick on you for something like that isn't much of a friend. They should have just respected that you weren't up for it right then and that you wanted to use the money on other things. If you weren't going to pitch in to buy it, then I assume you wouldn't have been smoking much of it anyways, so they should be glad; it means more for them. xP If you're always trying to bum a smoke and never pitching in then I could understand them picking on you to try and get you to stop mooching, but that doesn't seem like the case, right?

You say you only hang out with them because you don't really have any other options. That's your first sign that you need new friends. Either you'll get closer to these guys, and they'll become more than just a convenient option for when you get bored, or you won't. If you've already had to separate yourself from them before and you're having problems with them again now, I think your chances are leaning more towards the "won't" side.

Personally, I'd rather be bored and be stuck with just a few internet friends for a while than hang around with people I don't like in real life. Yes, you'll be bored sometimes. Yes, it kinda sucks to feel like you don't have any friends in real life, but I think it's worse to go along realizing that you're only there becuase you have nothing else to do. Find a hobby or something to keep you busy (like taking up underwater basket-weaving! xD) and try to make yourself available to meeting new people. New friends will come along eventually.