I'm just..sad

[OstrichAficionado]

Lately I feel like my heart would just explode. Sometimes I wonder what would it be like if I just killed myself right now, and I think I might soon. I mean nothing's gonna change if I did, no one's gonna get affected, everything would still be normal. That's what I think, or maybe I'm just being selfish. Sometimes I just want everything to end, what's there to lose? Maybe I'm giving up. I can't do this anymore. I'm just sick of everything around me already. I don't want to get up anymore every morning. I wish I could just sleep forever. I get mad when I can't go back to sleep. I want to stab my mom, my sister, my dog.

My life's not bad. My parents raised me correctly. I have a normal life. I go to a normal school. I go out with my friends. But always, always, there's just something missing. Maybe its a relationship? I just want a happy life in the future but I really don't know if I can make it. Nothing's stopping me from killing myself. Please, help me.

I know that the whole thread may sound immature and selfish but I just wanted to let out the things in my mind. And sorry if this isn't the right place to put it.


Edit: Nvm, i probably just over-exaggerated :P

[Aspiringanonymous]

I'm not sure what exactly to say at the moment, but just keep in mind, that not all experiences have an apparent reason for occurring. Sometimes things just are. They come, and they will go. There is value to be found in everything, no matter how unpleasant it causes one to feel.

I am glad that you were able to let these thoughts out. Bottling things up, only heights their intensity.

May you feel better soon. Feel free to contact me any time if you want to talk about anything.