AllThatIsLeft
December 18th, 2009, 02:55 AM
The Sour Taste of Yesterday’s Love.
I remember the days your words meant something,
They weren’t a duty but constant confessions.
I remember when you’d look at my eyes and told me you loved me,
They weren’t simple lies for my sake, not to hurt me.
I remember the shine in your eyes and the intensity they would broadcast,
They wouldn’t look above my head and just pretend they were looking at me.
I remember the shakes when your nerve system would collapse,
They wouldn’t stop until everything was understood right.
I remember you tongue tied when your words failed,
They wouldn’t be smooth white lies, words that were stale.
I remember your scared touch that very first time,
It had been sweet, innocent and it had been mine.
I remember when you said forever and meant it,
Not like every other time, like forever was demented.
I remember confessions of dreams and hopes,
Not nightmares where commitment was a martyred thought.
I remember the time I caught your first lie,
Swearing it was true when I knew otherwise.
I remember my heart breaking when I said I had had enough,
That without you I’d better, even if it was tough.
I remember you sighing in relief and said “Thank God!”
You fucking coward didn’t have the guts,
You had me suffering because you couldn’t break up.
I went through hell because you didn’t have the nerve,
Pretending you loved me, when it had been lies all along.
I remember the days your words meant something,
They weren’t a duty but constant confessions.
I remember when you’d look at my eyes and told me you loved me,
They weren’t simple lies for my sake, not to hurt me.
I remember the shine in your eyes and the intensity they would broadcast,
They wouldn’t look above my head and just pretend they were looking at me.
I remember the shakes when your nerve system would collapse,
They wouldn’t stop until everything was understood right.
I remember you tongue tied when your words failed,
They wouldn’t be smooth white lies, words that were stale.
I remember your scared touch that very first time,
It had been sweet, innocent and it had been mine.
I remember when you said forever and meant it,
Not like every other time, like forever was demented.
I remember confessions of dreams and hopes,
Not nightmares where commitment was a martyred thought.
I remember the time I caught your first lie,
Swearing it was true when I knew otherwise.
I remember my heart breaking when I said I had had enough,
That without you I’d better, even if it was tough.
I remember you sighing in relief and said “Thank God!”
You fucking coward didn’t have the guts,
You had me suffering because you couldn’t break up.
I went through hell because you didn’t have the nerve,
Pretending you loved me, when it had been lies all along.