Will she just flipping stop it already?

[1_21Guns]

Its actually driving me crazy. I can't take it anymore. Every time i'm right I get told that i'm delusional, crazy, or the latest one, drunk. Then when I confront her, she thinks its fine to try and convince her 15 year old daughter who has already been convinced that she's stupid and ugly etc in the past. And she knows it. But no, she won't stop. Over and over. Just because she can't stand me being right, it means I must be crazy. I must of been drunk. I didn't say it. I dreamed it. I imagined it. I never said that. Y'know I wouldn't mind if I didn't already have trouble figuring out whats real and whats fake. I'm starting to believe her now, seriously wondering if i've lost it, that she's right. How can a mother do this to her own child? Yeah it might sound like i'm making a drama out of nothing, but seriously. Its sending me off the rails. Like I don't have enough without her trying to tell me anything she's embarassed or ashamed about/is wrong about is a lie. I can't stand it. I don't see the point in it. Why would she want to try and convince me something that isn't true? Doesn't she know how much it hurt me the first time when my own dad did it. Is there just some cloud of emotional abuse that seems to want to follow me everywhere. I can't take much more of it anymore :|

[Lxhysterique]

i'm so sorry you're going through this. i also went through an exceptionally rough patch with my mum. she was constantly screaming at me, constantly blaming me for things i had no control over. i would literally wake up to her standing over my bed and shouting at me. it was horrible, traumatic, and i considered suicide.

for me, relief came when i went to live with my dad. my mum and i were able to reconcile once we had proper time and space away from each other. i obviously don't know your situation very well, but would it be possible for you to stay with friends or relatives for a while? perhaps approach your mum when she's [relatively] calm and broach the idea of a period of separation. she might be furious, however i do think it's worth it to try and arrange other living arrangements, for your sanity.

i know it seems scary, but please, please, try and be brave. you do not deserve to be tormented by this. it will take all of your strength, but don't give in to her abuse.

♥

[AddiEast]

Wow sorry Natalie that this is happening
can I ask (and dont be mad at me for asking) but does your mom suffer from mental illness at all??
Maybe its HER that has the problem. Maybe she has lost it...

[1_21Guns]

Wow sorry Natalie that this is happening
can I ask (and dont be mad at me for asking) but does your mom suffer from mental illness at all??
Maybe its HER that has the problem. Maybe she has lost it...

Not that i'm aware of, she seems okay, apart from this..

[drewlink99]

I am sorry you are going through this...
It is a terrible thing to be told constantly that your wrong, even if you are right.
I don't know the extent that this is going on, but you have to keep a level head, and know that if you are right, and you have fact to prove it, that is enough. If you know for a fact that your right, keep it to yourself as a little victory, or share it with friends.
My dad is not the same, but is "right" all the time, like, if he never looked into the sky and you told him it was blue, he'd call you a liar.
You just need to know that your not loosing it, it is just your mom.
And in a few years, you won't need to hear her telling you these things anymore.
I hope I didn't loose you in my ramblings!
And I wish you the best!

[woody92]

I FEEL sorry for u!

u can PM me!