What is stopping me [this might help you too]

[chelsay13]

What stops me was one, simple thing one of my best friends told me..."when you hurt yourself, you're hurting the ones you love". And you know what? It impacted me. Because of that, I came up with this horrible image inside my head...this is what happens...

I have a thought in my head of cutting, but then I remember how I hurt others. Then, I imagin not me holding a razor to my skin, but me holding someone i love down...they scream and cry...I force cuts on their arms. I hurt them, literally...I imagine the pain that that person goes through, because of me. I picture that person lying on the ground in blood. I can't take that picture...it stops me, no matter what. It kills me, makes me nauseous.

I just thought I'd share that...I don't know if it can help you, but it's worth a try.

[GreyxRainbow]

Thanks for sharing. :)

[Faithfull]

Oh gosh that actually works... i used to do that, i used to think of cutting my boy friend and it used to make me feel sick... it really does stop you from doing it.

[Amyxoxo]

But are you really thinking when you are cutting. So it may be about the bad things but i dont think about who im hurting untill after i have done it, or when someone finds out i have done it :/

[Asylum]

thanx for sharing. I think you and Amy are both right. I'll give an example. Like sometimes I don't think when I cut. I can only think about what's wrong, other times I black out. Then there are insedences where I do have controll, I can think about other things. I'm not in that deep of a dark place. I'm at the fine line between what I call sane and insane, or I guess subconscious and conscious mind. Insane is when I can't control what I'm doing. When I'm on the line it could go either way, but I'm mroe conscious of what I"m doing. When I'm sane I"m 100% or a little less conscious of what 'm doing. When I'm insane, what I do, I don't realize it, or i see it as no other option, that is part of the subconscious mind. So i guess you are both right.

[Obscene Eyedeas]

When i cut i cnt think or fucntion all i can do is cut and cut til i feel better. Its killing me bcuz it hurts my bst friend who knows bout it they constantly shout at me bout it and recently i hav begun forcing myslf to tnk bout them all d tym to stop myslf from cuttin

[chelsay13]

Amy, good point. But see, it stops me when I feel urges, controllable ones. I haven't yet had one I couldn't control, it's been a while since I cut. I get into this mental state where nothing but cutting can occur to me, but Right now, I can control it.

[BuryYourFlame]

Personally, this has also largley impacted me and has held me back multiple times. I wouldn't even have to picture physically hurting them, just knowing that I've hurt them again emotionally...my friends are the main reason why I've quit.

I'm glad you've found something that is helping you to stop, I hope it continues to work. =]

[Krazymitch]

This as stupid as it sounds doesnt stop me from cutting. this jsut makes me want to do it more, because if everytime i have cut i have hurt the people who love me or who i love then i have hurt them beyond repair, hence it makes me more depressed. so i cut more... i dont know if this a wrong thing to say but i want them to feel and understand the pain i go through.