Saying things i dont mean...

[myskias]

Ok.. for the past 3 weeks i have noticed that i have been subconciously saying things that i dont really mean to say. and then my friends will come up to me later about it and say that what i had said was totally mean and hurtful... im totally confused and lost at what i am doing and i want to be nice.

background information... ok i have been depressed for like 3 years before this past month or so.. i read a book that helped me get happier.. but i stopped being emotional and caring towards other people.. i used to LOVE helping people with their problems and tahts all i cared about.. and now just all of a sudden i stopped caring and everythings just... nothing to me pretty much.. all i want is to be happy AND to help others out and CARE. but i dont know what im doing.

I am confused about everything thats happening in my life and it just seems like whenever im happy others are sad. and whenever im sad others are happy. i dont know why i am saying things unconciously and not realizing that im saying mean things and im just so lost... can someone help me.. please. i dont know what is going on!.....

[AncientCatastrophe]

The only way you could change that is by yourself...........How about find another book to read that could change you again and start being nice at your home, help your parents and do stuff and you'll soon realize that being good is better.
Maybe the reason why that is happening to you is because you had bad experiences on the past few years, why don't you recall them out and seek what happened and its result.....Or you've been hanging out with friends that have bad influence to you or do bad stuff.
:eat:

[Aspiringanonymous]

What, in particular, are these hurtful statements which you speak of? Once they are explicitly identified, one can consciously monitor one's speech to catch potentially offensive speech before it comes out. And, in the case that it does come out, recognize what just happened and apologize immediately.

Apathy and denial of emotion certainly is a method of obtaining relief from distress. Yet in your case, it is clearly not effective, as the experience of being apathetic is upsetting.

You have been experimenting with a different state of being, which has shown itself to be much less than ideal to you. But that is okay; keep searching, do whatever you usually do in the quest for inspiration and healing, and a compatible form of 'happiness' will come to you at some point.

[myskias]

theyre just little statements such as. your hair looks poofy today or stuff like that. but then theyl like escalade to other stuff? i dont really know. but all i know is recently iv been feeling less and less emotion towards everything and its really just.. hurting myself and others because i LOVE helping people with their problems.

My boyfriend says that i am acting completely different than before because im not as sensative and caring towards people and i didnt realise it until today when he told me. and its really just starting to confuse me. i dont know what i am doing wrong most of the time. but i know that im not there for people like i used to be. its very confusing :/

[Aspiringanonymous]

The sub-conscious is indeed a complex and absurd matter. Few experiences that occur as a result of forces beyond conscious reasoning can truly be understood at all. Regardless of how or why this issue came to be, it is here now, and the question is how to deal with it effectively in order to minimize damage. Perhaps it would be helpful to learn to view the experience as separate from the Self - as you seem to know quite clearly that this cannot be who you are deep down - whatever this is does not constitute your nature as a being, though it influences your consciousness.

Our perceptions of the world are always changing, and this, too, will pass at some point in time. As the specifics of the problem is beyond comprehension, we cannot draw a map leading to the exit, but we can have faith that an inner sense of direction will lead us to the way.

[myskias]

what do you suggest i do about this? wait it out and try to just hope for the best? i feel that if i try to go back to my old habits i might get better. but i was depressed in my old habits. so i am unsure what i am supposed to do

[Aspiringanonymous]

You have to make your own decision at the end of the day, as you know the complexities of your current circumstances much better than I. Weigh the pros and cons. Search for, and listen to your intuition. No matter what you do, have faith that it will work out as it was meant to.

Personally, I would choose to be open, rather than consciously 'trying' to steer in any particular direction. That is, perhaps, the most difficult choice to maintain, but I have experienced enough to know that it would be in my best interest. It could very well be a different story for you.

Good luck. You will be alright.

[CrAzMaN011]

latley my whole school is acting wierd, including me. it has been going on for a week and a half.

[myskias]

yeah :/ weird isnt it? mine too. and thanks so much krezlyn your a genius. no joke :)

[Ballin2much]

saying things you dont mean..... this is most likely over shooting the problem, but...

Tourette Syndrome

just taking a guess. i hope everything works out for you.