Apathy

[Brazdar]

Sometimes I feel far away from everyone, anyone, even family or friends. I feel like I'm watching myself and everything around from a third person's view. At times I know I have to mime emotions for not being rude. I can't tell whether or not what I feel for others is real or just another induced mimicking. Though I feel it's not really right.

Has anyone ever felt like this? Or what do you think about it?

btw I hope it's in the right place, it is sort of a crisis.

[Sapphire]

This sounds more like dissociation than apathy. Apathy is when you just stop caring about things whereas dissociation is characterised by feeling numb, feeling like you are viewing yourself doing/saying things from a third person perspective etc.
I have experienced this sort of thing before and it can be really scary. Sometimes I found I had to self harm just to remind myself that I was alive and capable of feeling.

Do you have a counsellor or therapist?
If you do then talk about it with them as they may be of better help than me.
If you don't, is there a trusted adult you can talk to about this?

[Grinchilla]

Maybe you're depressed?
like... you can't get caught up in the emotion anymore and just live life?

I've been like this for a couple years and totally forgot about until now. I don't like it either. I feel so trapped somehow and always wonder if other people feel this way. Maybe it's just once we got this perspective it's hard to go away? This is how we think now?

It gets better when I have fun though. And get caught up in the moment and stop thinking out every little thing. When I feel human again. Not a zombie.

Good luck, honey. I think many people feel like this here; you're never alone.

[allsoulsareblack]

im the same i can fake emotions reli well i do this alot i can be down all day and people wouldnt have clue ecept me i seem verry distant cus im thinking of death