Denial?

[Stewart]

First, I have a small social life. I have good friends, my grades are average, and I should be happy, but I'm not. I feel lonely, I feel like I have no friends, but I do. It's a weird feeling.

Okay, so I thought I was bisexual, I was SURE... But then I started reading stories about gay teens and realized that I felt so much in common with them, it was unreal.

I've dated 4 girls in my life. I've never felt anything. I thought I liked a girl, then we go out and I lose all feelings I had. I just thought of them as really good buddies.

I just thought I had crushes on girls, and I did, but then it just...*pssshhhh*....deflated and died.

I think I'm gay.

When I was little, I never liked sports, still do. All of my friends were always girls. I just felt more like girls.

I've deep down always felt different from other guys.

I've only fallen in love with one guy. Although never had a crush on one.

I don't want to be gay. I don't want my life to be torture. I just want to be normal

I think I'm in denial...and I feel lonely, like something is missing.

[Appleton]

Well, speaking as one who is "not normal" all I can tell you is that you are who you are. I said for the longest that I was bi and it was only this summer I started realizing who I really was. Once I came to that conclusion and came out to my family and some close friends there was a huge weight lifted off of me. I don't think my life is torture now. I'm happier now than I have been in a long time. And I know what you mean about feeling like something is missing. I felt that way until I came out and things really started to make sense.

If you need to talk send me a message. I don't have all or probably any of the answers but I can listen. :)

[daveywavey]

well, there are non athetlic straight people too, but i see what you are coming from, for awhile there i thought i was gay, then i thought i was bi, then i thought i was straight, at our age who really knows, except you.. you got plenty of time to figure it out bro, you are still very young with much to learn about yourself, and life. Torture ? yes gay people are different but EVERYONE is different and weird in some way so just be proud of who you are, whatever it is that you are, you were born with that inside you and you just have to embrace it man, just keep walkin tall bro it will be clear to you some day :D