Thinking..

[zer0x_glasscut]

I got to thinking today about my childhood, and all the things that happened during it, and I realized.. most of it was some sort of abuse. Mental, physical, sexual.. and then some started to bother me, really bad.

I won't bore you with detail, but some that really stuck in my mind and bother me are:

The time my brothers and sister tied me to my bed and beat me.
My dad used to load his pistol and tell us to shoot him.
When we'd fight he'd hand us loaded guns and tell us to go shoot ourselves.


That's all I can think of for right now. I'm sure some more will come to mind.

[Sapphire]

My advice is to stop idly dwelling on the past. All it will do is depress you.
If they affect you in your daily life then seek help in dealing with them.

[Eclipse]

I agree with Sapphire. Forget about the past. It'll only bring you down if you keep thinking about it. It seems it didn't bother you until you thought about it, so just relax and forget about it.