The Harlequin
November 29th, 2009, 07:23 PM
Okay so I am going out with this guy, we've been going out now for about 4 months and a couple of weeks ago I got the feeling he was avoiding me, so I asked him online what was wrong and we had a big discussion where he said that sometimes he had doubts about our relationship, (he hasn't been in a relationship before).
I gave him time to breathe and space to think and he soon called me up and hung out at his and everything was fine again...
He's gone on a foreign exchange trip now, and yesterday I went to this guy's house whose an old friend of his. Me and my bf are pretty sure he's gay, he comes onto my bf a lot (I'm not out of the closet and our relationship's a secret).
Nothing happened, but if he had instigated something I'm not sure I'd have stopped him, I'm not even ATTRACTED to him either, that's the mad thing- and I feel genuinly disgusted with myself ~ I love my bf, so why am I so fickle all of a sudden?!?
I seem to have no understanding of the consiquences of a situation, I know what would probably happen, but I can't CARE about them until they have an impact on me, usually when they're playing out before my eyes...
This is a huge flaw, and I desperately need advice on what to do about it. If I lose my bf through doing something stupid I'll never forgive myself, but I just don't think about what I'm doing...
My impulse is going to destroy me unless I do something, so whoever you are, please help me
I gave him time to breathe and space to think and he soon called me up and hung out at his and everything was fine again...
He's gone on a foreign exchange trip now, and yesterday I went to this guy's house whose an old friend of his. Me and my bf are pretty sure he's gay, he comes onto my bf a lot (I'm not out of the closet and our relationship's a secret).
Nothing happened, but if he had instigated something I'm not sure I'd have stopped him, I'm not even ATTRACTED to him either, that's the mad thing- and I feel genuinly disgusted with myself ~ I love my bf, so why am I so fickle all of a sudden?!?
I seem to have no understanding of the consiquences of a situation, I know what would probably happen, but I can't CARE about them until they have an impact on me, usually when they're playing out before my eyes...
This is a huge flaw, and I desperately need advice on what to do about it. If I lose my bf through doing something stupid I'll never forgive myself, but I just don't think about what I'm doing...
My impulse is going to destroy me unless I do something, so whoever you are, please help me