I fear with all the death in my life I'll be ***ked up forever

[horse]

I'm only 13, but there's been so much death in my life so far that I fear I'll be traumatized forever and won't be mentally stable when I get older. I've lost nearly everyone I know and there have actually been so many deaths close to me in the last month that I really can't care any more. If my parents were to die I think even if I tried I really just couldn't care because I just give up. I was wondering what I should do and how I can help make myself not ***ked up permanently and have mental issues later in life. It's really come to a point where all I can think about is death and how I will die. I'm not suicidal, no... Quite the opposite.


Any help?

[enzenzz]

How did they die? If it was known that they were dying then it would even seem like they are better off since they are now in a place without any suffering.

If it was accidental then you may just still be in shocked and are still blocking the pain you feel.

This feeling you have about death will only be temporary. Keep living your life and eventually things will get back to normal.

[Triceratops]

I can understand where you're coming from because I have a friend who has been through this experience.

You are not fucked up. If you're concerned about how you'll psychologically cope in the future then the one thing I would suggest is that you seek a psychologist's help and support. They are the ones who will help you deal with your mental issues.

Another thing, if there is a close friend or family member you could talk to then I strongly advise you confide in them.

[1_21Guns]

First, stop lableing yourself, the more you think you're 'fucked up' the more you'll start to believe it. Second, yeah it sounds kinda cheesy and silly, but those people who died are still with you, just not in the ways the used to be. Like Marcie said, if your concerned about your mental stability as you get older, see a physcologist, and tell a close friend or family member so they can also help you if you can. The feeling of giving up does happen if so many people die at once, but remember its just life, you're not one of those who died, you're still alive. So live it, they wouldn't want you to lose hope and give in.