I need to do it again.

[Josh9961]

It's been too long since I've been on this site.
A while ago I had a tough time... parents, home life, people at school. It all piled up and I turned back to cutting. It steadily got worse and worse until eventually soemone told my teachers and then my parents. I stopped, just so that the teachers would leave me alone. I started drinking instead and smoking more aswell. About two months ago, I stopped that too. And I was happy. No more being treated like shit by my girlfriend. No more being watched by taechers. But a couple of weeks ago, Dad was shouting at me again and I locked myself in my room. I ended up cutting again. Fairly deep on my arm. The next day, after crying into my best friends shuolder, I found taht she had told my teaher again and my parents knew. They shouted at me for hours, about how I was selfish. We talked it out in teh end and got over that. These last two weeks have been some of the best I can remember so far in my life. But all day yesterday and today, Ive wanted to go back into my desk drawer and take out my knife. I feel like I need it, liek when I was quitting smoking. I still feel like i need it. But I'm happy, really happy with how things are right now. so I shouldn't be cravign it right? :confused: Im happy but so confused and i feel sick right down in my stomach cos i need this so bad.

[1_21Guns]

Of course you shouldn't be craving it, it not a good thing to crave. But, like smoking, some people say cutting is addictive, and like the battle with quiting smoking, theres also a battle with cutting. If you happy, use it to your advantage. tell yourself you dont need that stupid knife, its not your friends shoulder you cry on, its a lifetime of scars. You're right to be confused. Its normal.
And i'm going to have to correct both the name of the thread, and your end line.
You don't need it, you just want it so bad you're confusing needs for wants. Needs are things like food, the knife's for making food, not fucking your life up more.

[clone]

you should'nt crave it but it happens. If your life is good and your happy then why the hell should you do it? if you do start you will just get looked and yelled at more and that's never fun.