Natoja12
November 23rd, 2009, 07:23 PM
You know how at school theres always those few couple of girls who u hear they have made out with so many guys and u automatically beleive it. Well thats me. Except its not true. Through rumors and stuff ive become known as someone on a first date who will be kissing everyone right away.
Tho ive only had one boyfriend. In grade 7. and im in grade 9. it lasted a week. tho even my best friend thinks ive had like ten. And ive never made out with a guy. yet alone held ones hand. But i have kissed some..Part of a game i played.
I'm getting really tired of everyone right now. like its not that i dont have guys that like me its that they all expect so much. and i do like having the impression that ive had bf's, but i hate what any new guy trys to make me do.
And im not tking about sex. I wont be doing that till im at least 16. i am the most paranoid person in the world. but i keep it to myself and it kills me. I come home sometimes and think of some little mistake that i made think of the worst thing possible and i end up crying.
I have so much on my mind right now.
I'v gotten asked to the movies with this kid name Dane. But i do not like him even a little bit. i said yes and asked him to invite his freind Josh. But obvously dane likes me a bit to much because hes tking about how im not alloud to sit near josh. :(
Hes txting me now on how we should hold hands and stuff. and that josh can not make it now. i dont wanna cancel on him because it will seem obvouis. but im upset because something tells me it wasnt josh's idea for him to not come.
Idunno y im writing this. i guess to vent a little bit.
Comment if u want, im feeling confused, angry, and depressed.
Tho ive only had one boyfriend. In grade 7. and im in grade 9. it lasted a week. tho even my best friend thinks ive had like ten. And ive never made out with a guy. yet alone held ones hand. But i have kissed some..Part of a game i played.
I'm getting really tired of everyone right now. like its not that i dont have guys that like me its that they all expect so much. and i do like having the impression that ive had bf's, but i hate what any new guy trys to make me do.
And im not tking about sex. I wont be doing that till im at least 16. i am the most paranoid person in the world. but i keep it to myself and it kills me. I come home sometimes and think of some little mistake that i made think of the worst thing possible and i end up crying.
I have so much on my mind right now.
I'v gotten asked to the movies with this kid name Dane. But i do not like him even a little bit. i said yes and asked him to invite his freind Josh. But obvously dane likes me a bit to much because hes tking about how im not alloud to sit near josh. :(
Hes txting me now on how we should hold hands and stuff. and that josh can not make it now. i dont wanna cancel on him because it will seem obvouis. but im upset because something tells me it wasnt josh's idea for him to not come.
Idunno y im writing this. i guess to vent a little bit.
Comment if u want, im feeling confused, angry, and depressed.