So angry at myself

[Becky]

I was doing so well 2 months without a single cut and then today and yesterday I gave in I'm efeling myself slip back into my old self and I'm scared I don't like it I now have around 60 shallow cuts that bleed for about 5 minutes each but I got that relief that I didn't want. :(
I now have counselling I don't know what help its going to do me already went once and didnt really do anything for me going again tomorrow hopefull it helps more.

[Whisper]

finding the right counselor can be hard
its not like taking a truck to a mechanic or rushing into see a general practitioner
you have to each have the right personality mix

It took me a few trys to find the right one when I was younger
Keep trying because when it works, the feeling it gives you, the weight that's lifted is immense
suddenly everything becomes manageable, daunting yes but manageable and you know you will have help.
It'll be okay hun

That's also why VT's here
You're never alone here

xx

[Amyxoxo]

O.K. think of the time you cut as a small hurdal, you are going to get back up and start again. Tell yourself that you didnt get the relife, tell yourself that it was bad. You dont need this to start again. Dont let yourself slip back into that cycle.
You just have to keep trying with the councler you will find a right one soon enough and you just need to hold out untill you find them.
Good luck and take care :) xx

[Becky]

This time was a bit better she gave me actuall things to work on and stuff was easier to talk to her. I'm ashamed thats I cracked now after doing well for 2 months So I've decided all I can do is start again :) Thanks guys
x

[Amyxoxo]

That is great, well done :D xx

[Asylum]

good job :) 2 months is really amzing :) don't let youself slip back into the old routine. You can do it :) keep up the good work i'm glad you are trying not to.

[Becky]

I did last week but haven't since don't see my counseller again until january so hopefully will do ok until then :)
Thanks Magik5 I've been reading some of your theads and posts