My cousin and me

[Silent]

Let me start off by just saying that im really close to my cousin. I would be willing to do anything for him. I say this to him quite often:
"I will always take a bullet for you. I will lay down my life for you. No matter what happens we are always together even if im in a coffin, I will be your guardian angel after death. I will make sure you never take a wrong path."

Sometimes I just dont feel like he understands that.
I love him alot and would be willing to do all that.

He keeps me sane alot.
I have contemplated suicide a few times and he has kept me from doing it with out him knowing. If he wasnt there i prolly would have.

If i was to lose him I prolly would kill myself.

I just love him so much.

I just dont know what to do. Like every now and again he will do somthing that will really upset me which will make me "think" and I just dont know how to bring this kind of thing up to him.


Every time I get like this I write for hours in my little journal. I have filled like 20 pages. I dont know if i should let him read them or not tho.

Any tips would be great im really in a down down down down mood.

[ErykaInspire.]

I think you should have him read them.

If he's your cousin and really cares about you, I think he would want to know how you're REALLY feeling.

You said he doesn't understand? Then give him the chance to.

[Silent]

Well im worried that he will take them the wrong way.

[ErykaInspire.]

Talk to him about it afterwords. Let him know you're going through a lot and you need him for support. It's not a good idea to hide those kinds of feelings from someone you really care about/love. If something were to happen, they'd feel like they did something wrong. Give him to chance to understand. It's up to you how to tell him, but I think you definitely should.

[Silent]

Talk to him about it afterwords. Let him know you're going through a lot and you need him for support. It's not a good idea to hide those kinds of feelings from someone you really care about/love. If something were to happen, they'd feel like they did something wrong. Give him to chance to understand. It's up to you how to tell him, but I think you definitely should.

Ok well im supposed to see him tomarrow and he is also supposed to spend the night tuesday so hopefully his little bro wont be there tomarrow. I want to talk to him in private cause i prolly will cry.
Im older than him too so thats going to be odd.

[ErykaInspire.]

You crying will show him how much it means to you.
Don't worry about it being "odd", but let it out.
Even if his brother is there, take your cousin into a secluded room and vent.

[Silent]

You crying will show him how much it means to you.
Don't worry about it being "odd", but let it out.
Even if his brother is there, take your cousin into a secluded room and vent.

Ok thank you for your input. I will post tomarrow to say how it goes. Hopefully well.

[ErykaInspire.]

You're welcome. Message me if you ever need to talk, ok?
I know you don't know me very well, but I'm easy to talk to and I always listen.
Whenever(:
Good luck!!

[Silent]

Thank you

[ErykaInspire.]

You're welcome. (:

[Kahn]

I don't know if I'm late or not. But maybe show him one page instead of all of them at the same time. Showing them all might be a little odd for him, due to the fact that he is younger than you will also make him a little uncomfortable because it would be a lot to take in.

[Silent]

Okie dokie well I talked to him today. Every thing went pretty good and he understood it. So I think every thing is good. He still says I love you back and whatnot but he did say that he dont like giving hugs which is kinda a bummer but its all good. So every thing went well :D

[Quick_Sylver]

That's great!

[Silent]

Thanks for all your help again :D

[Appleton]

Hey you! Oh man David, I know what your cousin means to you. We talked about this for hours. You are such a caring soul and if your cousin is anything like you've told me, he would want to see those writings and would understand them. You can talk to him and help him understand your feelings. You know I'm here for you. I hope you're doing ok man. Talk to me ok?

[Silent]

Ok :D

[Appleton]

Ok :D

See that's what i like about you David - short and to the point. Hit me up on msn ok?

[Silent]

See that's what i like about you David - short and to the point. Hit me up on msn ok?

Will do. If a mod wants to lock this they can.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

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