On The Path To Self Destruction....

[FallenAngel]

I just cant seem to control my moods at all lately =/
My depression has gotten better in some sense as there are times wen im the happiest ive been since it all started =/ yet on other days im the worst tht ive ever been.

Ive started self harming again, and ive found new ways to harm myself :(
Ive been smoking more and wen i do drink alcohol, which isnt often, but when i do... i drink soooo much tht i almost pass out.

I just feel like im on the road to self destruction and tht no one can save me.

My doctor recommends tht i see a psychiatrist. I just dnt no if i could talk to some stranger about my life. I dnt no wot to do.

[Triceratops]

You can't go on like this as these problems will escalate and you'll become a danger to yourself.

You need to take your doctors advice and see someone about this. It may seem difficult at first, but trust me, it's not as hard as it sounds. They are there for a reason, which is help and support you to get yourself back on track.

If you want to escape this destructive road then you desperately need to take the right steps - which is to seek help from a psychiatrist.

[Cybertone]

Talking to someone at first is rather difficult. Simply have them ask you question that you answer to ease into it until your comfortable bringing things up yourself. Getting help from a professional is never in vain.

[overcome.]

Finding it hard to care can be tough when you're in such a depressed state and such a dark place. These medical professionals are nice people, I must admit I've had mixed opinions in the past. I believe(d) I was just a number to them and just a case file - which I am. Unfortunately a case file that hasn't been closed. You will feel something when you get all of this into the open, normally a sense of not relief, but even comfort confiding in somebody that can help you. You will realise you're not alone.

Like I said, it can be hard to care sometimes and also very hard to see how far you've gone down. Due to experience, it's not until people such as family tell you they are extremely worried or until friends notice you're acting different/quiet that things are wrong. You deal with yourself every day, they can see changes over periods of time. Do the best for yourself and slow down that journey of self destruct, and hopefully reverse it by making these positive and right steps forward.

[FallenAngel]

You can't go on like this as these problems will escalate and you'll become a danger to yourself.

You need to take your doctors advice and see someone about this. It may seem difficult at first, but trust me, it's not as hard as it sounds. They are there for a reason, which is help and support you to get yourself back on track.

If you want to escape this destructive road then you desperately need to take the right steps - which is to seek help from a psychiatrist.

Ye true, tbh when im dwn tho i wnt to hurt myself, i punish myself for bein so pathetic and useless =/

Ye i spose so, ive got an appointment to see sum1 but im so nervous and dno if im gna go. Its not till Monday 14th Dec, but i just dno what im gna do.

Talking to someone at first is rather difficult. Simply have them ask you question that you answer to ease into it until your comfortable bringing things up yourself. Getting help from a professional is never in vain.

thnx

Finding it hard to care can be tough when you're in such a depressed state and such a dark place. These medical professionals are nice people, I must admit I've had mixed opinions in the past. I believe(d) I was just a number to them and just a case file - which I am. Unfortunately a case file that hasn't been closed. You will feel something when you get all of this into the open, normally a sense of not relief, but even comfort confiding in somebody that can help you. You will realise you're not alone.

Like I said, it can be hard to care sometimes and also very hard to see how far you've gone down. Due to experience, it's not until people such as family tell you they are extremely worried or until friends notice you're acting different/quiet that things are wrong. You deal with yourself every day, they can see changes over periods of time. Do the best for yourself and slow down that journey of self destruct, and hopefully reverse it by making these positive and right steps forward.

Hmmm ye i spose i feel the same, and tbh i dnt think i culd trust them. I would be worried about who else they are sharing my private information with. I know its meant to be confidential but u never know for sure. And im worried tht they'll judge me.

ye i'll think about it, thnx for the advice.

[Surrealbeliefs]

These are medical professionals for the most part who have been trained and educated in their field. So, you shouldn't have to worry about being judged or them sharing your private information.

I completely understand what you're going through, with feeling worthless, and wanting to find escapes in pain, alcohol, or other means. Sometimes the emotional pain would be so bad for me at nights, I could do nothing but sink my fingers into my skin, and yell into my pillow.

I used to hurt myself in many ways as well, and it never provided any satisfaction for me. In the end, I was left with physical reminders of my own personal shame.

It's understandable to be nervous, especially with how the media in films, television shows, or other formats depict that specific field. If you have anything you like to do, or even a particular song you like, put it on, or do it when you feel these urges. I know I had a particular band with two songs that I've listened to for the last four years or so. (If you're curious, the band is Dredg. The two songs are Bug Eyes, and Same ol' Road, it's really soothing.)

You need to understand you're not worthless, and whether you like it or not, there are people who care for you. They may not be able to understand your exact feelings on it, but someone should be able to relate to feeling as you do. It's better to try to stop hurting yourself now before you get in to deep.

Like the above posters said, don't worry so much about the psychiatrist. They're there to help, and to help you through this troubling time in your life. Even when you feel alone, and this forum can be proof, that there are others who are in your shoes this very moment.

Try to give a smile.

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