I can't do this anymore :|

[1_21Guns]

I allow my parents to split to stop the abuse. Now I just get it worse off my mum.
My dad convinced me I was stupid, useless.
Now my mums trying to convince my i'm crazy, delusional.

I can't take it anymore. Nothing I do stops it, theres only one thing left. I can't even do that. Because it will hurt everyone else.

My strengths fading. I'm not crazy.. I'm not stupid. Or atleast thats what I keep telling myself. I want to die. Even when i'm remotely happy/hyper, the thoughts still there in my mind. I ignore it, but I can't for much longer.

Its killing me guys. It really is. Blades wont stop staring at me. Painkillers scream at me. But I know none of it works. I've done it all. Nothing makes it go away. Not anymore.

[PonY]

Natalie, I was treated like I was a total retard, no one cared about how I felt, still don't.
My mom is a total cow, and verbally abuses me. she also makes it so that I have vertually no contact with the outside world. Takes all her anger out on me.

I too wanted to kill myself, but I looked in my GF's eye's and knew that I would never so long as she is by my side. I now know that was the best choice I could have ever made, I am happier than I was before, once I realized how she would feel if I did the deed.

I still have a knife in my room, and I still cut once in a while. Even though I don't much like doing it but it kinda makes the pain go away. I look at it as a bad thing, wich it is. I could press harder and finish it all but my baby Gracey. She looks to me with her sweet eye's, and burning passion. Nothing can make me do it. So long as she is by my side.
Do you not have anyone who loves you? Even just a little bit?
I think you do. I love you, I will talk to you whenever you need me to. I can, and will if you please.


PonY :yummy: