Anti Depressants... Question

[PonY]

Hello there everyone!
I was wondering if some people could share their experiences when on anti depressants.
I have been off them by choice for about a year now and I am quite happy i did that.

April 1st about two years ago I was admitted to a phyc ward for depression and for my moms idea, my sexual preference. They then put me on Paxil. This is where it all started.

I finally got out and missed my GF's birthday, then I went home and finally got to see her. But when I did, I did not feel anything. Just felt nothing.
About a week later mom started yelling again and getting annoying. Still nothing. Usually when she yells at me i get very upset, and sometimes resort to cutting, but just enough to bleed a little. Well I did not feel a thing. At first this was cool. But then when I am with my Gf, not cool. It is the ultimate feeling of nothing.

I decided to get off of these, I stopped taking them, but the addiction set in. I hate this, stupid addiction! It was not easy to get off them, yet not hard considering i didn't feel anything. But aside from hallucinating, puking, and when you touch things you kinda, tingle.... I got over it.
Finally in the past summer about a year after, I got to start feeling alot better. I mean, being with Gracey was good, I could feel the love. BUT, now last summer it has gotten the best. I feel alot better now bt with one side effect. Mom still yells, and yet yells more than ever. So I get upset more and more. This is the thing I hate about not taking them.

Does anyone else that has or is taking anti depressants feel the same way I did?



PonY :yummy:

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Yes, I am on anti-depressants at the mo.
They make me feel numb. They make your mood more level, meaning they stop you feeling really depressed but they also stop you feeling really happy.
I stopped them once when I wasn't supposed to and almost immediatly I starting feeling everything really raw again. It was horrible because my mood got sooooo low.
I have yet to be allowed off them by my psychologist so I can't relate to that just yet.

[PonY]

Well he never said that! at least i know, that is good though. Gotta lve drugs. thanks alt for the reply!


PonY :yummy:

[overcome.]

I've been on anti depressants since around late July-August. I've had mixed experiences. You get a few different groups of this form of medication which in turn do slightly different things. I was taking a medication called Citalopram for a while, I experienced: extreme loss of appetite, insomnia, lack of sexual drive, fairly 'shaken' in the mornings (like I'd drunk a lot of alcohol) amongst probably a few other things. Stemming from this, I got more depressed, lost a lot of faith/desire in life and also the medication I was taking.

Now I'm using an anti depressant from a different group called Mitrazapine. This is more of a sedative helping me relax/sleep rather than an SSRI booster which the previous one was. The previous one would in theory maintain more of my 'happy' chemicals in my brain and preserve them instead of letting them go. Thus in theory also building them over time so I'm happier. That didn't really work for me to tell the truth like I explained. Anyway, Mitrazapine has helped me more. My appetite is back and as healthy as ever, I'm sleeping a lot more and often uninterupted (if anything too much sleep, I've had 6-7 nights in the past few months where I've slept a solid 13 hours). It also helps me relax more in general life compared to before, sort of calms me down.

[Sammi13]

I take Paxil too. It doesn't make me feel "nothing" though. It's helped me a lot. I still get happy and sad and angry and anything like normal. Mabey if you tried a different anti-depresent? I've been put on about seven different ones before I got to Paxil. It can take a wile, but they have all sorts of things. You just have to try and see what works.