Bit of a rant ... i think :@

[Amyxoxo]

Well, shit has happend and well...im sorry in advance.

I want to die...i want to stop the pain that overtakes me all day, everyday. The horrid thoughts in my head. I know that i would never kill myself though, i dont have the balls. But.. reacenly i think i might, 'accedently' take the cupbord of pills, 'accedently' fall off that bridge. I dont know weather i can take it anymore.
Im sick off hiding under this cover, a smile. Im sick of lying, "are you alright?" "yeas thank, you?" Why the fuk do i even say yes? What even possesses me to say it? i know that im not. Well i started to tell one of my friends how i felt. She asked me if im alright i said no, explaned to her that i have been cutting ALOT more, told her that i dont want to be here. And do you know what she said .......... oh.... 'oh' not ' oh dont worry you will get better, do you want me to tell someone' not... 'oh, you will get throught this im here for you.' no she said ... oh! Then she went on bout how this boy asked her out, she said no and went and like jumped of this bridge. (well something like that(i dont know weather he actually done it))
I know that people are starting to worry bout me but they dont know how to be. They dont understand that all i want someone to do is tell the scool so that i can get help.
Well ... I have a science GCSE coming up. I know im going to fail. I have made all my thoughts like that so that when i get all of my results back in august next year then i wont go and kill myself. Well, not with out thinkin bout it first. I know that the best thing to do is to revise and i actually am but i just know that im going to fail, EVERYTHING!
Anyways, im thinking of taking the big bottle of vodka and downing it. Mabie i will use that to wash down the pills. lol. Im so sad and shitty.
Swimming gala comming up, if i do this and a scout spots me then i may do england trials again. But... i cant do it. I have cuts all over my body. The only thing i can do this year is discus :/
Yea again im shit ... dont really need replys i think i know what to do now :/
Sorry again x

[goneghost]

no-matter how rubbish you may be feeling
killing yourself is not the answer

stay strong
im here if you need to talk just pm me x

[drewlink99]

I know EXACTLY how you feel, the smile, the "I'm okay, how are you?"
It sucks, and I know what it feels like to want to die... Thank God there are no bridges in Oklahoma! Or I would have done it! But it is better to live! To do things for the future.

Just do everything FOR the future, think in detail. You want to swim? But you cut yourself... Give yourself time to heal, be okay! Then when your better go for it, and anything else you want!!!

Just think of what happens if you fail at suicide! The pain would be much worse then...
I know you don't think of it, BUT DO!!! You need to want to live! Live for something!

PM me if you need someone to talk to! I JUST got over the same thing!

[Aspiringanonymous]

Don't be sorry, that's what this site is here for. A safe outlet for troubling emotions. Sometimes there is no need for advice, but rather someone to listen, to inform one through their silent presence, that they are not alone with their thoughts.

I know that the best thing to do is to revise and i actually am but i just know that im going to fail, EVERYTHING!
I know that feeling well. It can be a rather self-fulfilling prophecy.

At one point however, I suddenly realized that, what if I failed? So what? What exactly does academic success prove about the individual, anyway? That I am unable to function as a normal participant of society? Well what if I didn't want to; what if I was perfectly content on forging my own path and living to my own standards, where I wouldn't have to be branded as worthless and insane every day?

In the end, my grades turned out fine. You will be fine, as long as the effort is still put forth, there is no reason why you would be unable to maintain the same standard of achievement. You've already made it this far, after all, despite whatever issues you have been battling with.

Everything comes and goes, and this feeling, too, will naturally pass with time. Meanwhile, don't hesitate to express yourself on here, or contact any of us privately if that is a better alternative. It really does make a difference.

[Kahn]

Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does. ~William James

One of my favorite quotes. What you do does make a difference large or small. Committing suicide is large. If you do that everyone around you will be affected and with everyone hurting who knows what will happen next. You obviously care about your surroundings. Swimming, grades, friends. You just have to take that and use it to your advantage. People are there to help you in this world, find one.

Do not think about Suicide. I have been thinking about it for 3 years and I am getting help for it right now from one of the best friends I know right now. Cutting is also an issue. It is holding you back from Social activities and swimming and that could also be another factor that affects the reason you are depressed.

Not only must we be good, but we must also be good for something.
I will be here for you. Every step of the way. Send me a PM. Any time.

- Adam

P.S I am living with what your going through..

[zgrazier]

sucicide does nothing to show anyone that u are strong.
think about it.
stay strong.
ull make it.