Am i the ionly one who isnt ashamed?

[Teardrop Harmony]

so here i am telling you about my self harming life that in my last post i told you i had given up well i started again after me and my boyfriend broke up because i had no reason to not cut, i guess that sounds stupid but after selfharming like i did it is hard not to atall i gave up for about 2 months and a week and now i feel alot more relaxed and feel alot better about my self, i didnt start cutting because i broke up with him because it was me who ended the relationship.
i don't know what it is but i feel like it is a really good thing andf i enjoy it so much, to be honest i missed it more than anything. is it wierd to love it as much as i do, also i have found new way to increase the pain which seems to be even nicer. i now put nail polish remover where i have just cut which gives it and extra sting- am i the only one who does that? well i doubt it but if you do it please let me know lol. i am not ashamed of my 51 cuts a day, yes you read that correct 51, a day, and i have been cutting again for about two weeks so that is 714 cuts so far lol. i have got worse than i was before because i used to cut 35 times,( that was thwe age of my mopther when she died, rest in peace mother, and may satanic angels watch over you ( i am a satanist btw)) not only that i have bipolar would that make any difference, i have been told by my friend i should stop but they also said that it is my body i can do what i like.
but i know that poeple really worry when i self harm because i tried to kill myself 6 times and sad as it is failed :( but yh tell me what you think i should do please ta xx yours Taylin Foster xx

[girl on a string]

Wow, that's a lot to take. I don't know where to start.
But to simply answer your questions, no, I don't think you're the only one who tries to make it hurt more or who isn't ashamed.

[dropdeadkid]

I'm not ashamed of it either. You're not the only one.
I don't use nail polish remover to make it hurt more, but I do give myself deoderant burns over the top of the new cuts.
I also gave up for a while, and I missed it like hell. I get a sort of twisted pleasure out of cutting myself, and I like the pain. I know I deserve it, so I don't even bother feeling sorry for myself anymore, or remotely guilty.

I do hope that one day you find the strength to stop though, I hope we all do.

[sarah newman]

Im definately not ashamed of cutting, i increase the pain as well but not with nail varnish xxx
I cut like, once a day now and i dont care who sees, im past caring, but cuttings still bad if you hit a vein then your gone, but i just take that risk and dog the veins! x

[Sapphire]

You need lots of help. This is neither good nor healthy.

You are proud of the damage you are causing and that is a world away from just not being ashamed of it...

[luciia96]

well i started again after me and my boyfriend broke up because i had no reason to not cut

what the f***?! ''no reason to not cut''? and what is it supposed to be your reason to cut? da break up? it happens many times to everyone,and do everyone cut? NO! there is no f***ing reason to hurt oneself, you know? you're weak. And i better stop writing bcause if i continue i'll say things you don't wanna hear and oh! you could hurt your self because of me, and , i don't wanna be blamed ;)

no, i have nothing against self-injurers, my best friend is a self- injurer so... the only reason i told such a cruel thing is that I think u don't have any serious problem, you're just a ... i was going to say stupid,but i better not so you are just a daddy's girl who is happy because she does what she wants with her body and she can control pain, and you sound proud of being a self-injurer, and that is honestly stupid... but well...do whatever you want, I dont care about what you do with your life at all... don't take it personal... well... it is something personal...Lol, I don't like people like you, but it's just my opinion ,that's what forums are supposed to be for, to give your opinions, right?

:)

[girl on a string]

What the hell are you playing at luciia?!
Yes you're right, forums are about opinions but how you expressed yours is not cool.
No one has the right to tell another person that what and how they fee isn't validated, no matter how much they may disagree with it.

Cutting is an addiciton and people cut for so many different reasons and just because it may seem small to you and because "it happens many times to everyone" doesn't mean its any less devastating to the people involved.

As you said, everyone has a opinions but please don't express yours in a way that is degrading and hurtful to others. Also, don't comment on the fact that you think its silly that people self harm because until you're faced with trying to break the addiction you will never fully understand how not silly cutting sounds. To the people caught up in it, its not silly at all.

[Sapphire]

Cutting is an addiciton and people cut for so many different reasons and just because it may seem small to you and because "it happens many times to everyone" doesn't mean its any less devastating to the people involved.
I would hardly say that the OP is addicted.
If one is addicted to cutting then the reason for them doing it isn't because they have "no reason to not cut".

[Amyxoxo]

Not being ashamed of cutting is normal because it is a coping mechanism.
Being pround of it...well wrong!
You can like it, but, loving it....are you seeing a couceler?
You are hurting yourself, even other people when they find out. Have you ever thought that your freind has said that it is your body because they know that they cant help you, make you stop?
x

[1_21Guns]

No Taylin, your not the only one who made the pain worse, i've done it in the past with hand sanizier that had a redic. amount of alcohol in it. Yes, it hurts. Am I ashamed? No. I've had my moments where I have been, I don't have many visable scars, around 10 on my arm which are mostly faded are the only ones that can be seen. Do I hide them? No. Whats the point?
Your in love with your own pain. Not a wise place to be. You've probably been told this 1000 times before, but as much as your doing this to hurt yourself, you're hurting everyone around you that knows more than you think.
If you don't mind me asking, what made you cut in the first place? (you can reply in PM if you wish).
And 51 cuts in a day? Theres nothing wrong with not being ashamed, aslong as you know its nothing to be proud of.
And as for missing it, I do too. But I know its no good for me, not really.

[Teardrop Harmony]

Well long time no see forum, i stopped btw again and now i dnt miss it dispite the sh*t that hits me,ive not long returned from a holiday so i have a fresh open minded feeling and life is happier.

[Desuetude]

Well long time no see forum, i stopped btw again and now i dnt miss it dispite the sh*t that hits me,ive not long returned from a holiday so i have a fresh open minded feeling and life is happier.

Im guessing because this is your thread its ok for you to bump it :)

Im so glad you stopped and are happier. Thats what life is meant to be about, the good things, i mean really there is no point on dwelling on the bad but thats easier said than done.
Its great you dont miss it. Just remember that when you are sad its not worth it, dont even think about picking up a blade, the sadness will dissapear but the scars wont.

[thegreenone]

You need lots of help. This is neither good nor healthy.

You are proud of the damage you are causing and that is a world away from just not being ashamed of it...


I agree. I used to be the same way as you, cutting to take away the pain. I've been to three funerals in the last year of people MY age that have killed themselves in various ways. I started to drink after that to "make things better". It never really solves your problem. Just complicates it. I would recommend seeing a therapist to help you down the right path.

Just my two cents. :yes:

[Mortal Coil]

I'm not ashamed of cutting, and I do make it hurt more but not with nail polish remover. I'm glad you've stopped and don't miss it. I really couldn't quit if I tried.

RIP to your mother.

[LucasRobert0897]

Of course not, it really depends who I'm talking to though, having various people I hardly talk to know about it is shameful, they get opinions on me far too easily. However, talking to my friends is ok, they seem to understand. Although its not the best subject to talk about in normal convosation.

Hope my thoughts helped

[xDarkAngelx]

No I'm definetely not ashamed of cutting, even though i'm not trying to stop yet, I doubt I could if i tried.

[girl on a string]

Not to bump a dead thread, but I also remembered this site tonight. Tonight is not a good one, but I'll be damned that I will relapse after 2 and a half years. It does get better. It really really does.

[StoppingTime]

If you'd like to make a thread about a topic, do that instead of posting in an old one. :)

Thanks! :locked2: