How did you start ?

[laurita_21]

so, firstly.. i found out how to make a thread :D woo hoo !

back to the point.
Ive been feeling really sad lately i don't know why but i feel something bad is going to happen and ive been really scared! i don't feek like i can talk about this with family. ive only told my PE teacher.. she kinda got it out of me because i couldn't even talk when i started feeling like this. she took me to another room so i could calm down. And in that time when i was alone in the class i just found some scisors and i slighly slit my wrist :( i don't know why :confused: i was confused and scared i just wanted to do it :(
so, heres a question. if you self harm..
How old were you when you started ?
and why did you do it ? <---you dont have to answer that one its ok.

[Aspiringanonymous]

I'm assuming that this is your first experience with self-harm, correct me if I'm wrong. It is very scary and unnerving, certainly, but with time you will come to understand the situation well.

I made my first cut at age 11, on and off through to 14. After that, I found a better state of mind and simply didn't want to anymore. Fleeting urges to relapse still surface however, particularly when I am feeling tired and hopeless, but it usually disappears the next day.

Most people self-harm to make their troubles go away, but I don't think that was ever my central focus. I needed to prove to myself that everything I felt was real, and not just all in my head, 'teenage hormones', and all of those dismissing accusations that were thrown at me by others. To wear physical scars on the body, and give the hurt a concrete existence, seemed the best way at that time. One could say thus that it was pursuing a form of personal control, an attempt to take back the control which others had of my mind.

[Sapphire]

I first came across the act of self harm aged 12 from a friend. She handed me a wire in class one day and said something along these lines: "Let's scratch ourselves with these and we'll get really hyper. It will make this class more fun"

I was dealing with a lot at the time and the time I felt low, I remembered how hyper we had both got.

I battled with my self harm for 6-7 years. It is not worth it. There are more alternatives that are healthier for you.

[Amyxoxo]

Well i started when i was 13, still doing it a year on :/
I do it to get away from my life (when i do it that is the only thing i consentrate on)
Sometimes to punish myself and sometime to feel something. All depends really :/
Anyways if this is your first time and you are considering to do it again. DONT! It will only get worse. You will tell yourself when to stop but you physically and mentally cant. Please this is not a way to do anything.
:) x

[Flutterfly]

I was 13 the first time I considered it, I almost did it too. I was upset with life. Mad that everything was changing. I didn't actually do it until I turned 14, not even really paying attention to what I was doing. I was writing on my arm with a mechanical pencil at first, it wasn't writing, just leaving red marks, and it sorta stung... but it seemed to take my mind off everything. After a while I just started using soda tabs and actually cutting... =[ It so wasn't worth it, I've stopped several times, a few times for 5-6 months, but it's really hard to stop and it does hurt others emotionally as well as yourself. I wish I hadn't started, because now I struggle with it a lot. =[

[Rifle35]

i was 15 and started doing it because of depression my friends are trying to help but they just dont understane

[Kiaa Bby 001]

ii started about 2 yrs ago and now it is like the second ii have a fight with my parents its all ii do ii want to stop but ii just cant ii am thinking about going and seeing a counsellor but ii am scared they are going to tell some kind of phsyc ward and get me emmited

[Hatsune Miku]

I was 13, I was depressed about my life. I questioned life, why it exists. I wanted to die, but at the same time i didn't. I came home from school, walked into the kitchen. And looked at the knife. I picked it up and ran it across my arm, It stung, then started bleeding. It seemed to take my mind off of everything, I wanted more, so I did it again... Im trying to stop now, its hard. But its worth it. Its been over 2 weeks since i last cut :)

[laurita_21]

I was 13, I was depressed about my life. I questioned life, why it exists. I wanted to die, but at the same time i didn't. I came home from school, walked into the kitchen. And looked at the knife. I picked it up and ran it across my arm, It stung, then started bleeding. It seemed to take my mind off of everything, I wanted more, so I did it again... Im trying to stop now, its hard. But its worth it. Its been over 2 weeks since i last cut :)

2 weeks :D well done XD

that's exactly how i felt. but i tried to stop before i got addicted, but i can't seem to stop, to much bad things happening rite now. that just leas me to cutting :mad:

[Sapphire]

but i tried to stop before i got addicted, but i can't seem to stop, to much bad things happening rite now. that just leas me to cutting :mad:That is such a defeatist way of talking. You can stop if you put your mind to it.

How long have you been doing it?
I ask because you have to have been doing it for a significant amount of time before you can get addicted.

[laurita_21]

That is such a defeatist way of talking. You can stop if you put your mind to it.

How long have you been doing it?
I ask because you have to have been doing it for a significant amount of time before you can get addicted.

yeer i know im kinda like that :( i hate that about me =/ i give up really easy.
I've done it for about 2-3 weeks, but i do it alot soo...yeea =/ its not really long enough to get addcited(I think). But ive been doing it alot and i just like the feeling of it. im just a stupid confused child ¬_¬! dont hate mee :(

[Sapphire]

yeer i know im kinda like that :( i hate that about me =/ i give up really easy.
I've done it for about 2-3 weeks, but i do it alot soo...yeea =/ its not really long enough to get addcited(I think). But ive been doing it alot and i just like the feeling of it. im just a stupid confused child ¬_¬! dont hate mee :(
I will say it again: You can stop if you put your mind to it.

You know it's not a good thing to do to yourself. You know that no good will come of it.
Stop hurting yourself now as it will only get harder.

[Grinchilla]

I started 2 weeks ago. I don't know why I started... I'm ridiculously shy... I can't even return "hi'' to people. I feel empowered when I do it. I'm not afraid of anything now. plus, my boyfriend... oh I love him, but I shouldn't love him... and I'm crazy

thanks thanks for asking, dearie

[sarah newman]

first started when i was 12 then i quit for 3 months and now im 13 and i do it constantly. Reason is im scared if i suffer from depression, dont really like my family even though they treat me well, i feel as if no one cares about me whatsoever, i get fed up when i start to cry in tutor or any class that people start to care then, i get called an emo all the time, loads of people are finding out but i dont care no more and lastly it makes me feel soooo good when i cut, omg, the feeling is just great. Thats not the way to look at it though. If your thinking about doing this then just one thing to say to you... DONT! Its really addicting, seriously. You might not think that now but once you do it, it really is. Thats if your thinking about doing it, your paretns will find out in the end and friends will to, then rumours will go around about you that isnt even true-more than one rumour-and you dont need or want that,not at your age, nobody deserves thatxxx

[ihatemylife]

I started self-harming myself when i was 15 so just over three years i can't remember the exact reason but i supose it was just a bulid up of evrything i had been through i had no one to talk to and i still dont tbh no one knows which i put down to the fact that no one notices me so they dont see my scars. Too those of you whos have just started STOP don't put your self through it all

[MadManWithaBox]

I started I can't remember the age, but my first thing was punching the wall and breaking my knuckle. After that I remember I was ina bad place emotionally, and I was cooking something, and I was slicing something with a knife when I just put the food down, put the knife on my wrist, and drew it along. And it felt good. I started cos I was in such a bad place emotionally, I'd had more than bad general experience, my entire family hated me cos I still picked my dad despite the time he beat me up, and all the other stuff he's done to me, and just loads of stuff.

[StrawberryCyanide]

Self harm is a scary thing, so don't be confused that you are feeling that emotion :) it's great that you could talk to your PE teacher about it, that's so brave, many people including myself find it incredibly difficult to talk to anyone about it face to face. Well i first hurt myself intentionally when i was 11. i can't remember exactly why though... i remeber that my parents had gone through a break up a while before then and i have some bad memories of them fighting. all i remember is that i'd just gotten back from a school trip and for some reason i felt the need to scratch my arm continuously until it bled. it all went downhil from there. all i can say is that if this is your first personal experience with SI (it sounds like it is, sorry if i'm wrong >.<) then please be careful. And please seek help or advice in some way to help you while it's a new problem. These things can get out of hand very quickly. Good luck ^_^ ♥

[lady_oblivion]

I started self harming when I was only 10 years old. My dad was the only person I felt I loved back then but my mum had thrown im out of the house when I was 4 and I had only seen him twice since then. My sister was refusing to go to school because she was scared of the people there and so most of my time at home was listening to my mum shout about how stupid she was being.
Because of all this I had become a recluse and never talked to anyone, choosing instead to lose myself in the fantasy of books.
I mostly sat in my favourite tree at school and it was there that I scratched myself on a nail while climbing. The flow of blood was so fascinating that I kept on scratching and scratching until my leg was flowing with blood.

Ever since then I've been cutting and I can't imagine stopping, it's pretty much the one thing that makes me feel... Me, if that makes sense.

My best friend at high school also self-harms and we try to stop for each other but it's still hard for both of us.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I was 12. I can't really remember why. I guess I was stressed and had a lot of issues bothering me. The idea got in my head because I had two friends who did it, however they only ever done it for the fashion statement. However I came to rely on it.

[Becky]

I started when I was 13 and have been fighting it for 3 years ... it's scary thinking thats how long its been :( I had drawing pins in my room and I had always picked at my hands and stuff and loved the hurt I don't know why so I thought I could do it the same with the drawing pin it progressed until now When I bleed everytime I stopped for 2 or 3 moths but replased last night :'(

[-Silence]

I started at 13, my mother and I had another fight, one of many it seemed like at the time. She left, I went to the kitchen, grabbed a knife, and ran it from my wrist to elbow. Didn't even bleed, but man it calmed me down and I felt like I had control, for once.

I cut myself off and on for 8 years. I stopped last year and haven't done it since. Its been a year and two months.

[1_21Guns]

I was 14, and started because I had chosen to stay up fairly late, everything got on top of me at once and I just snapped, it began with scissors on that night, I probably only did it because I had no-one to vent to, the person I used to vent to was away on holiday. Then I moved on to razors and I tried it with a knife a few times, then the final thing was a pencil sharpener. My past and the current future broke me piece by piece. A history of abuse and flashbacks flickered through my mind, and the effects they began to have on my everyday life were killer. I'm 15 in 13 days, and I started it a month or so before the summer break. I haven't cut in a long while, but i'm still fighting.

[Jordanrhea]

Damn your crazy. Stop being so emotional

[Syvelocin]

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