Falling.

[Eclipse]

Lately it feels like I'm falling down, failing. My grades are dropping, I started to smoke weed, and drink. I started to flirt alot more, hang out with boys and it kinda makes me seem like a whore. I now cuss a lot more than I used to, for no reason. I dont really know what's making act like this, maybe just part of growing up? I need answers please.

[Aspiringanonymous]

I say this to everyone who approaches others for an explanation of their own behaviour. Others will never be able to know you better than the potential you have to know yourself. We can make assumptions, generalizations, educated guesses, but any analysis put forth is after all, subject to the limitations in perception imposed upon our consciousness. Only you know exactly how you perceive the world around you. Converse with others, ask for their views, but they are only references to assist you in your own journey of understanding.

That said, the search for answers is often a long, tiresome one. Sometimes, there may be no intelligible explanation at all; things just happen. Not everything has a reason.

For a truly insightful and effective analysis to be possible, I would say that you need to begin by asking questions of yourself. When and where did this progression of actions start? What changes in your life, even the subtlest things, could have contributed? What do you feel, when you are doing these things as described? And, most of all, are you comfortable with the new lifestyle you have adopted, if not, are you willing to make change a priority?

[Eclipse]

Thank you Krezlyn, that actually makes sense. This started at the beginning of this school year, 8th grade. Well I actually gained a lot of confidence over the summer after I had stopped cutting. So I started doing more bolder things. I actually feel really guilty doing these things. I'm not that okay with how my life is right now, I wanna change, but it's just so hard.