I'm screwed

[wolfman775]

I don't think any amount of help could fix me, Its not that I have a bad life (Infact I have a good life) Its just That Its not enugh. I hate everything in my life; I hate the human race (The whole human race even me); I hate how every day is exactly the same I hate how everybody just folows the same life: go to school, get qualifeid, get a job, make money, get married and die; I hate how nothing hapens, I hate how the world works and I just want everybody to go back to hell where they came from. I get all these random thoughts, I don't care for anybody, If my entire famly was murdered brutaly on front of my eyes I would not care, I can actualy imagine killing my own brother with my bear hands (Down to every tiny detail like the smell of blood and what you would feel). I just don't know why I bother anymore.

[Harley Quinn]

I don't think any amount of help could fix me, Its not that I have a bad life (Infact I have a good life) Its just That Its not enugh. I hate everything in my life; I hate the human race (The whole human race even me); I hate how every day is exactly the same I hate how everybody just folows the same life: go to school, get qualifeid, get a job, make money, get married and die; I hate how nothing hapens, I hate how the world works and I just want everybody to go back to hell where they came from. I get all these random thoughts, I don't care for anybody, If my entire famly was murdered brutaly on front of my eyes I would not care, I can actualy imagine killing my own brother with my bear hands (Down to every tiny detail like the smell of blood and what you would feel). I just don't know why I bother anymore.

Sure everything is the same, but hey that doesn't mean you can't make it different, you just need to escape that mind of yours ecause if you really think you wouldn't care that your family was brutally murdered then to be honest you are wrong, and do you know why? Because they are the ones that have raised you, that have been there every single step of the way and no matter how much you hate them, you can't wish them dead because you need them. And you would quite possibly be lost without them. Do you get help from a phychatrist or anyone? Because they can help you with your mind and how you visualise...death.

[clone]

its life
life is boring and it is the same INTEL you do something about it wanting everybody to die an burn in hell isn't unusual i want this all the time it should pass or go to a therapist
as for everything being the same if you want do something crazy but think of it this way how will you get money with no job how can you get stuff with no money
you dont have to get married and can drop out at 16

point is having boring stupid lives are the best ones to have.

[wolfman775]

I just don't get life, I don't know why I do things, I just do them and then everything just goes wrong. I just don't want to be like everybody else, I just don't feel like I fit in. Every time I try to be different everybody does thier best to crush my opinion. I am just sick of people who say they have thier own opinion but just follow trends and only ever do things because other people do them. And together with all this there is a feeling that my world is getting smaller and smaller, until everything overlaps.

I have a very unique view of everything, what one person sees is completely different in my view; forinstance, a lot of people see death as something awfull that they hate and are scared of death, but I just know that death is just another part of life and it's going to happen to everybody someday. Everybody accepts life for what it is but that's not enugh for me I need to know WHY! The qustion I will never stopasking Is why, but it's probably the one I will never get a full answer to.

[Sapphire]

Not every life is boring. Some people go scuba diving on weekends and holidays. Some people spend their free time paragliding. Find something positive and a little out of the ordinary that you are passionate about or really interested in and persue it. Engulf yourself in the joy of planning adventures and discovering new things.

There are so many exciting things that you can do in life but the only way you will ever find them is if you change the way you view things.

And I am speaking from personal experience here. I used to be in a similar position to you (minus the not caring about anyone and visualising death and brutality) and therapy helps. But nothing helps more than getting out there and discovering some of the exciting opportunites life has to offer.

EDIT
Screw the opinions of the masses. What effect does someone else's opinion have on you and how you live your life?
We should never stop asking questions, but try to find that bit of joy, excitement and adventure in life as well. Otherwise life will forever be dull and the world will feel like a small and empty place.

[wolfman775]

I used to feel realy great I used to do all manner of exciting things, but as I got older and my world got smaller I realised how much evil there is in the world and how repetitive everything was. I don't think I will ever be that way again, but I am thinking I might start to make music again, I think it would realy help if I could just tell the world how I realy feel. I find that when I listen to music I am in my own little world where all of a sudden everything makes sense, I think the best way to express my feelings is through music because of how I feel about music.

[Sapphire]

I can't understand how the world has got smaller for you.
The world gets bigger as you get older because more opportunities arise that you can take advantage of.

[Hyper]

Jesus.. Get over it really.. I read all of your stuff and it basically said the same thing over and over ''teenage pity crap''

Sulking around and thinking like you do is simply one of the paths to becoming an evil person yourself

And of course life will be ''boring'' & repetitive if you do absolutely nothing with it.. If your not at peace with how things are then change them.

Also if your not going to be who you are because of ''getting your opinion'' crushed by other people.. Well then sad story bro, you'll find out as your world becomes more ''exciting'' and non repetitive that that sort of thing will happen even more often; having your views & opinions challenged/tested.

If you want to be your own person don't care what other people think.

[Aspiringanonymous]

I can understand. Every one of your statements resonates with me deeply.

Dare to lead a different existence, to transcend the mundane absurdity of human nature. Even if failure is inevitable, does that give us sufficient reason to not try? Life is just a journey, forever in progress, and whether we have made anything lasting out of ourselves means very little at the end of the day. What does matter, is whether or not we made the attempt. Invent hope for oneself, where the world provides us with none. It is always worth the fight.

Continue perceiving the world in the manner which you always have done, there is no need to compromise your belief system simply because it is uncommon. If things around you don't make sense, there is no need to stress over that fact, for in order to truly understand, one would have to somehow adjust their perceptions of reality to fit that of the social norm, thereby losing their true inner voice. Just leave them to be, let them live their lives. You don't need to be like them anyway.

Rather than focusing in on all the negatives of the external world, take time to cultivate your essence, your inspiration, reach in to who you are as an individual and treasure that. Creative energy is so much more profound when it manifests as artistic expression, rather than destructive desires. If music is your best mode of self-expression, than by all means, go ahead. You may be surprised at what you are capable of creating.

I, personally, chose to hold on to the belief in infinite potential, when every single thing around me was diligently trying to prove me wrong. I probably am wrong. But it doesn't matter. After all, we have the free will to shape our individual perceptions and, to a certain extent, reality as it is interpreted through one's own eyes. The 'world' is only as big or small as you judge it to be.

That is all for now, but I would be happy to continue this discussion in private at any time, if you wish.

[fohawk]

calm done you need to chill

[Death]

@ OP: You can't seriously mean that. You're only sixteen and no-one's life is the same, ever. Would you seriously not mind if your parents were murdered? And would you seriously want to do that to your brother? Besides, you've said that you've had a good life so why are you complaining about it? Come on, live the only life that you'll ever have and you will find that it gets a whole lot better!

[Bullet Soul]

I don't understand how you feel you wouldn't care if your family was murdered. I do get that everyone hates their life at times, it would be extremely abnormal if things in life never bothered you. But what you said about your family being murdered is really just disgusting to me. I'm not judging you at all, but I think that you should really talk to someone, because that's just not right. You may not feel as if it would, but if that happened it would truly affect your life. If you feel like you might hurt someone then you really need to talk to someone, seriously.

Your life might not be perfect, no one's is. If there's something you don't like about your life, work your hardest to change it. If there's something you don't like about yourself, try your best to become a better person. No one said that you have to live a life you can't stand - you're always capable of making it easier and better to live for yourself. If you need help, talk to someone you trust - but don't live your life wishing it would change when you're perfectly capable of changing it yourself.

[Billy15]

I'm not going to say that I love everyone or approve of the stuff that everyone does but I hate nobody. I do however somewhat understand what you are saying (I think) because as I get older, I also feel less content and search for answers.

When we were little, everything was so much simpler, no obligations, no pressures,
no figuring out life, we just had fun. As I get older, I see the hatred in the world, the evil and I know before long I'll be in the middle of all that, fighting to keep my head above water just like everyone else.

I don't have an answer for you because I don't have the answers for myself but it seems to me that your allowing the negatives in the world to consume you rather then
being an island if necessary and surrounding yourself with positives. Don't allow the dark side to pull you in, instead, fire up your own light and use it as a beacon for others who feel like you do.

[hashbrown]

i know exactly how u feel, i am as u are, i see the world for what it truely is, a vile, disgusting, putrid heap of degenerates and ungrateful monsters that we call humans, they are a virus, killing all other forms of life around them so that they can continue spreading and infecting the far reachs of the planet, killing each other over great beings in the skies that dont exist, or over a man who they never met in person or ever truely spoke to, i know how u feel, having no compassion for these creatures is a very familiar feeling to me, but if u are to survive through this, hell, then u must just remember that they dont matter, your on this planet alone, yes u have family, friends, but they will not always be there, you are truely alone, and so i say to u to not be bothered but these humans just let them pass be like a ghost talk to no one u dont want to talk with and pick ur friends wisely and u will make it through to a point were u can become happy, enjoy what u have made your life, and then one day u in turn will die as we all will