Outofc
November 5th, 2009, 10:56 PM
It's been a while since I posted, and I only have what, seven posts? But I need to let whatever the hell has been going on lately out.
So I don't know what's going on. Am I having a mental breakdown? Am I going insane? Lately I've been having uhm, really, really screwed up thoughts. Horrible thoughts that I don't even want to mention on this site. I've had random thoughts burst into my head about killing others. I don't even know why. I've been having this weird desire to cut myself, even though I have never cut myself before and I don't want to. (For example, today I saw a knife on the table. The first thing that came to my mind that I should cut myself with it, and I really did consider doing it. I don't know why!)
I've been having some weird hallucinations, too. Like yesterday, I swear I saw a man walk into this room but nobody was there. But I am certain I saw someone go through. And today, I heard this very strange whispering.
Basically, every day my mind just seems to become more and more screwed up. I need help, but how? What is wrong with me? Is this some kind of mental problem? Is it just hormones? Please, please let me know. I'm getting scared that something is seriously wrong with me.
So I don't know what's going on. Am I having a mental breakdown? Am I going insane? Lately I've been having uhm, really, really screwed up thoughts. Horrible thoughts that I don't even want to mention on this site. I've had random thoughts burst into my head about killing others. I don't even know why. I've been having this weird desire to cut myself, even though I have never cut myself before and I don't want to. (For example, today I saw a knife on the table. The first thing that came to my mind that I should cut myself with it, and I really did consider doing it. I don't know why!)
I've been having some weird hallucinations, too. Like yesterday, I swear I saw a man walk into this room but nobody was there. But I am certain I saw someone go through. And today, I heard this very strange whispering.
Basically, every day my mind just seems to become more and more screwed up. I need help, but how? What is wrong with me? Is this some kind of mental problem? Is it just hormones? Please, please let me know. I'm getting scared that something is seriously wrong with me.