So annoying...

[mexa]

kay so I'm in high school now and I have a bunch of friends and some of them are sort of chick magnets...specially since they're twins (O.o) so they're always like "I made out with this girl..." and "that chick is so hot..." and stuff like that. I'm usually the quiet type of person and I just watch or hear people talk since I usually end up making myself look stupid when I talk. The big difference between my friends and I is that I haven't really had my first real kiss or girlfriend (I'm 15 by the way) since I've never found a "necessity" of it or fallen in love. I've noticed many guys take relationships sort of like a game, but I don't really see the point in having a relationship if you're gonna take it like a game since you're gonna break up with her eventually anyway, we're too young to decide who we're gonna marry yet (that's my point of view anyway). So anyway my friends are like "have you made out with this girl?" or "would you make out with..." yadda yadda yadda...so since I haven't really done that I usually stay silent and make odd movements, not saying yes or no in fear of embarrassment...SO the problem is that since I don't really say yes or no and I do look "sorta gay" from time to time (from my point of view again, and from theirs too) they're starting to call me gay in some sort of way to annoy me or really calling me gay, not often though.

I've been taking this shit of "you're gay", "you act gay", "you look gay" for a long time now, I'm fucking annoyed about it. I have IMMENSE (did I spell it right?) patience with people, either they annoy me, hit me or whatever I wont snap that quickly since I usually end up "over-doing" it and end up really hurting people. I HAVE been questioning my sexuality recently but I just don't feel anything for any gender...I just take them for friends or really good friends.

I don't know what to think anymore and I think I fall into depression for some time till I start thinking about something else. I'm starting to think the depression will become bigger if I don't find a way to fix things soon.
I don't think I can explain them my reasons for one: I fear they'll treat me differently; two: they might as well tell someone else and spread the truth around, making people start teasing me; and three: for gods sake they're guys...many guys are homophobic and if they're actually "cool" with it, they WILL treat you different, not always but they might forget the truth from time to time.
I just don't really know what to do...do nothing? explain? stop being their friend (this would be the worst option in my opinion)?
any help anyone? opinions? advice?

Thanks in advice to everyone, sorry if it was too long but I found the back story as a necessity...

[Brighter.Tomorrow]

Be yourself. Just don't let yourself be pushed around so much, kay?
It takes alot to not follow in "in crowd" But fully being yourself, no matter what is even harder.
Truly being yourself will lose you friends, but the friends you do make will truly be friends, and will be there for you.

[MisterMonster]

if you don't feel anything for anyone then it's quite possible you're asexual. If you are and you don't feel anything for any gender then sit it out and wait. If in a couple of years you're still asexual whoop de doo, good for you. If you're not then you're not and it doesn't really matter what you are.

sorry if it didn't make much sense, it's been a long time

[Severus Snape]

1. Are you gay?

yes> ok, fine, you are gay. There is nothing wrong with that

no> Then don't be the least bit offended by what they say, bc it isn't true.

Friends can be jerks sometimes without even knowing it. Advance your sex/love life only as far as you want it to go. Don't rush into a relationship simply because of social pressure.

[thepieman]

OK, whether you are gay, straight, bi or whatever - make sure you are happy with who you are. It's important not to worry either way, as long as you're comfortable. Also, for your first kiss and relationship it's really important to wait for the right person. I'm in a similar-ish position. When I was young and naive I had a few girlfriends, while I've also kissed a few girls and guys. However I've settled down a lot recently, and I've decided to wait for the right person to go into a relationship with - even though my mates are having plenty of girlfriends, kisses and sex. Just do what you feel is right for you, regardless of what the crowd does.