Am I the only one..

[xHELPMEPLZx]

That tries to trigger self harm. I don't mean I try to trigger it for other people, just myself. Like whenever I'm down or starting to feel depressed I watch self harm videos, look at self harm pics, and other stuff just to encourage myself to do it more. Is it normal or am I the only one that does this.. I kinda feel like idk... I feel like I need to find pics or videos of ppl with deeper cuts and I want to beat them or something.

[BuryYourFlame]

I don't think it is trying to trigger yourself really, I think it's more an expression of what you are feeling/thinking about, through your actions. That is at least what it possibly is for most people if they do this, I can't say for your situation.

[Becky]

I do that sometimes it helps me not too though because I see how bad I used to be and don't want to go back but others it does make you want to do it more

[Amyxoxo]

I do it to copare what others are doing and how bad im doing it. Also it helps me to see what people see when they look at my arms as well. x

[xHELPMEPLZx]

I wish looking at it would help me not do it.. I don't think I try to trigger myself, it's just I want to be encouraged... Like to go deeper and do it more. Plus, most of the time I already want to cut before I start looking at stuff. Maybe I'm just weird.