I am an idiot.

[Kahn]

Deleted for personal reasons.

[Ghoti]

This will be Hard, but listen to me. STOP! Do not have any more! It will be hard but you need to stop! If you cant stop try to wean yourself off of it, like smoke a little a day until it gets lower. I am So sorry about your parents. Most people arent like that, you just were unlucky. Im sorry and it's not fair for you to have to deal with all that. Pretend nothing ever happened. Try to stay upstairs all the time, and keep a record of all your parents do in case you want to call the police on them, or something like that.

You have a hard life and drugs are tempting to turn to. But its not the answer to happiness. Go outside and look around. Take deep breaths and realize you are on an amazing planet! It will get your mind off of things. Try chewing gum, or seeds/nuts. Make a hobby and do that. Your brothers are scared to so talk with them. If you need anything im here, just PM me.

Seeya man.
-Jack

[Kartellmyst]

Okay...forget about that night, forget about the problems..even though they will always, always be there..It is sad to know that you are supplementing your brothers with the fatherly figure love they should be receiving...but wake up, this is bitter reality. I think you should completely block the night out of your mind/memories..don't let it remind you of what was done...think of other things such as your future ..how bright of a future you could have...and what you've always dreamed of achieving..think positive thoughts...:) Lots of Love to you =)

[steph4ryan]

how old r u?

just look at it this way, at least you still have your parents and family. it may not be the parents or life you want but neither do i i don't live with my mum, dad, or any family members, ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE, NOT THE WEED SIDE!!!!!!!!!

*Please use the edit function to add to your post rather than posting twice in quick succession. Thank you! ~Kaleidoscope Eyes*

[nick]

Adam, you know you should try to keep that a one-off relapse and not get hooked again. Sounds like your little brothers need someone with a bit of sense who isnt stoned to be around for them. I know that shouldnt be up to you, but if you can give them someone to love and to look up to that should bring you a lot of pleasure to. That was a very responsible thing you did getting them out of the car and walking them home, +rep from me for that.

Dont let the bastards screw you up! Feel free to pm me if you want someone extra to talk to.

[Kahn]

It's hard too look at this thread because it makes me feel like I did something wrong but thank you for all of the comments, and advice. I think it will help me cope with what they are doing. When I move they say we're there for the rest of my high school career but I highly doubt that.

Anyways thank you for the advice everyone and thank you for the rep Nick, but I don't think I deserved it. I was just doing what I thought is right.

[madman]

Adam, you are not an idiot, inface u did what most adults do when they are scared/stressed, i will say it wasnt the best choice to make but you know whats ok for you and your limits. you have all the support of your friends if u need it, so use it ok :)

[Kaius]

I feel like I am the kids father most of the time. I take care of them and discipline them like a normal father should. I play with them, and watch them all of the time like a normal father should.



My mother is an alcoholic too, my dad works a lot. I was in this position when my two little brothers were born. Day after day the cycle repeated. i would get up, feed and dress my brothers, take them to my nans house while i went to school, then went to get them after school and spent my time with them until it was time for bed.

It was only after my little sister Megan was born my mum snapped out of it and started to care for them like a normal mother should, but i know how hard it is to go through something like that. If you ever need to talk to anyone, feel free to pm or im me, my msns on my profile.

My uncle died a few years ago, since then i've been the father figure in my godson Danes life, hes whats kept me going the last few weeks, the fact he needs me more than i fail to realise. Look after yourself dude, the little guys need you more than you think. Do it for them.