I might just have to do it ...

[Amyxoxo]

Ok, well i may have said this befor but my family are going through a tough time atm. My grandma is seriously ill and my dad goes up to see her every night, this is effecting my mums relationship with my dad, so they are on the brink of devorce. We are also haveing big problems with money, i just asked my mum if she had already done the shopping this week and she said no, she may not even do it because we dont have enough money. Well anyway as you may have gessed this is getting me down majorly! I have already tried to kill myself twice but that was more a spare of the moment thing. Now im seriously concidering this. I have a brother and he really deserves the be treated well by my parents and if im not here then he will be. Well anyway i just needed help and support. I cut myself and i know that they know and that is getting them down as well, i dont want to tell them or anyone how i feel because im scared what will happen. I might just have to do this to stop all the guilt going on in my head.
Well anyway sorry for the ramble and well me basically.
:(

[savethehostages]

You have lots to live for, don't do it.
Trust me, it won't help your brother if you do it, or your parents marriage. you just need to try and get through this

[Discomposure]

Amy,
Don't do anything stupid, it will really help nobody.
Problems can be solved, and they will be. They just take time.
I know your probably sick of all this and want it over, but it's really not the right thing to do at all.
Your family would be so upset, heartbroken. Suicide can really mess up families, I've seen it happen. There is just no need to go to the extreme your thinking about going to. To me it seems like you try to please people, all the time, stop taking on your families problems, they are adults they WILL sort it out eventually, focus on yourself and realise you need help.

Get some help, and work through it. Never run away from your problems, be strong and sort them out.
You have your whole life ahead of you, and it would be silly to throw it away.
If your having these thoughts, and you cut, you clearly need some help, trust me, getting help is the best thing you can do in a situation like this.

PM me, anytime.
x

[Cloud]

okay instead of letting it get you down
and then letting you be down further fuck your family up
stop thinking about yourself because you are needed now
more than you know
do what you can to help your Gran
just visiting her can make a difference

and do what you can to help your mum
offer to do the shopping for her
sell some stuff on ebay if your low on money
im not sure how old you are but try to find a job or something so maybe you can help out a bit

You now have a choice whether to ruin things more or to do everything possible to try to get them better.
to me, thats an easy choice

[1_21Guns]

Amy, don't be daft. Things always get better in time, no matter how long they take.
Killing yourself will do more harm to your family than you think. Nothing would be better off without you, and you and your family can get through this.
You don't have to be strong all the time, admit its killing you and get help before you do something you'll regret. You'll pass the guilt from yourself onto your family if you end it.
Don't Amy, your worth much more than that.
You can PM me anytime you want, i'll always be here. x

[Art_dude]

First off, suicide is stupid because you are a human being and you have a BIRTH GIVEN RIGHT to happiness and life. However, if you can't convince yourself you want to live for your own happiness, maybe you'll hold off suicide if I tell you it will destroy your family.

Killing yourself would be the most selfish thing you could do to your loved ones, especially in an emotionally fucked up time like this one, with your grandmother ill and all. I can't imagine the pain you would bring your ill grandmother, and already grief stricken parents if you decided to kill yourself, not to mention you would be putting them through even MORE financial distress if you do it. They NEED you and YOU need THEM. If you've given up on your own happiness and your own life, don't drag those down who don't want to. have the common decency to live for them.