I have something to say.

[Triceratops]

Some of the things I've said have been reasonable.
Some of the things I've said have been helpful.
Some of the things I've said have been horrible.
I've anything I have said has hurt you or had a negative impact on you, then I'm sorry.

On my way to (attempt) quitting self-harm, I have developed so many different views of it on a whole on the way.
I agree with all the things I have said, ranging from the sympathetic to the slightly harsh.




So, now the rambling about stuff part is over, I just need a rant...

I feel at my weakest.
When you miss it...
When you crave it...
You feel...empty? Yet at your lowest point.
Crying and crying and crying, which I feel pathetic for.
I've only clawed at my legs in the shower, I'm not counting that though because I'm only counting real burns and knife cuts because that's what I have the big problem with.
I feel all anxious and trembling, that feeling before a breakdown.
Glaring faces and snarling voices...yeah.
The voices are making their way back to contort my mind for the past 2 weeks as well...
Eating is making me ashamed.
I can't really elaborate in to full detail tbh.

Just trying to do what I can to steer very clear from a 6th year of this.
Was unsure where to put this, ignore if you want.

EDIT: Lol, I know I said I wouldn't make any more silly threads, but I just needed to clear my mind. I am not asking for advice or pity or anything of the sort.

[Bougainvillea]

Marcie, I love you, and right now... That's really all I can say. Because if I was with you, I would comfort you, hold you, and caress you until you feel better. Things that words just cannot do. :)

I.
Love.
You.

[Triceratops]

Lawrence, I fucking love you. You know that, right! :hug:

[Bougainvillea]

I fucking love Marcie.
SO MUCH.

(I think it's time we consumate the marriage) Just kidding.

But Marcie needs a relaxing day at the spa...
It's been a stressful year.

[Triceratops]

Hehe. :P
You make me LOL. In a good way!

And too right it's been stressful! :P

[Bougainvillea]

Lots of change...physically and mentally. My sanity is being questioned. And I think I have a tumor or something.

I had another headache today, followed by a nosebleed.

[nick]

Lots of change...physically and mentally. My sanity is being questioned. And I think I have a tumor or something.

I had another headache today, followed by a nosebleed.
Lawrence, hope that's not true. Talk to me if you're worried and need an ear.

[Triceratops]

Lawrence, you know I'm here when you need me hun. :hug3:

[Triceratops]

Pointless keeping this open.
I don't want any more replies.
:locked: