I would like to post this as an act of mourning

[daveywavey]

2 months ago today, my Cousin Collin commited suicide, he stepped in front of an on coming train, this has been very hard for me to deal with, and i thought this would be a great place to describe the pain i feel every single day with an emptyness in my heart, i talked to him the night he did it, he said to me how excited he was to be going out with his friends and i never spoke to him again after that, he was 17 years old, may god have mercy on your soul Collin, i am very angry,sad,confused,furious, that you took your life, there are alot of people that hurt every single god damn minute of everyday because of what you did, not a freakin night goes by where i dont shed a tear for you Collin, i hope you realize wherever you are that this solved nothing, i hope i meet up with you in the after life Collin

Love davey:mad:

[Dead_User]

David....I'm so sorry...
All this time, I though...never mind. You know how my dad died...my grandfather shot himself...but you told me that you and Collin were really close...2 months ago?! Look....it's ok to feel that way. I know suicide doesn't solve anything, but...I don't even know what to say to you...it's just...I'm sorry.

[Uprising]

David, I feel so sorry for you. This must be a terrible loss as it sounds like you 2 were very close. Suicide is it a easy thing to deal with and you should go out and enjoy life. Also, every time your sad remember you have a family on here who you can talk too.
Love,
Jeff

[CaptainObvious]

Suicide is a very hard thing, and there's no easy way to get over something so traumatic and sudden. Over time, the pain will dull, but mourning isn't a bad thing - as long as you are able to also move forward with your own life. Don't let the pain you feel drag you down; it's hard, but necessary. And remember, there's always people willing to help, online, and also in your own life. Don't be afraid to open up or ask for help, you're a good guy and there's lots of people who are willing.

And to the many who find themselves in such dark places as to consider suicide: think about this, the real and painful consequences of suicide. No matter how crappy you feel, remember someone always cares, and probably a lot more than you know.

[Discomposure]

Loosing someone can be very hard, and I understand how your feeling. I know we can't do much here on VT exept talk, but if you need to talk or just want to about anything, PM me, I'll be happy to chat with you.

I'm very sorry about your cousin, it's awful, loosing someone to suicide. Well it's horrible loosing someone in general. Anyway, i'm glad you've found somewhere you can let out how you feel and whats going on in your mind. But have you considered talking to someone like a friend or family member? Or even a counsellor? Just having someone to talk to can really help alot, I know it can't bring him back, and I know thats probably all you want. But trust me, talking helps.

[daveywavey]

Thank you guys, I appreciate it. I haven't really opened up about him yet to anybody this is my first attempt :(

[OnlyByTheNight.]

I'm sorry to hear about your cousin, Davy. It must be devastating for you, you seemed very close to him!
R.I.P Collin.

[tyler27846]

I am sorry for your loss dude i know it is hard for you if you ever need to talkpm or im me

[Appleton]

David - Man. When you told me to read this I thought I'd know what to say. I know that words cant begin to describe how you feel right now man. I know me and everyone else saying we're sorry is good but we're not there to hold or comfort you and I wish we were. You've become an amazing friend and I want you to know I'm always here for you. You got my cell number so call or text if you need anything bro.

Thanks for sharing this and don't feel like you gotta keep it inside ok?

Love ya buddy. :)

[Hatsune Miku]

Im sorry for you're loss...I know its hard to lose someone to suicide. Believe me, I know. But remember this, Hes looking over you, and he'll always be with you.

[luvthissite]

Davey,
Sorry to hear about your loss, your cousin sounds like he was a really nice guy. How are you doing today? If you are still feeling sad, do you have a friend or relative you can talk to? Online posting is a great way to get your feelings out, but if you are really having a hard time, it is best to actually talk to someone. If you have a good school counselor, they will help you through this. Time is the big thing, it just takes time. It also helps to cry it out too, just let yourself cry.

Best, take care of yourself.

[overcome.]

I sincerely hope your friend may rest in peace. Feeling very low can be common when you have overwhelming problems. But there's a huge boundary between experiencing extreme lows, and then doing something about it is an entirely different thing. One of my cousins also commit suicide, she threw herself off of a balcony head first. I think even if we tried our absolute best, we wouldn't be able to understand what goes on in their head in terms of how low they really are. Then all of a sudden we're bought to a harsh reality.

I hope that you can also reunite with him one day. Everybody has different beliefs though spiritually and in terms of religion. Take care of yourself, life is forever throwing these things at us, some things we never deal with properly, only find methods of coping. Other times we move on quickly. Remember the good times and the love that you have for your cousin.

[daveywavey]

Thank you guys so much for your kind words they mean so much to me, esspecislly chris for giving me the courage to share my feelings about this. Love u man



Love davey

[TheKingDavis]

David,
there are alot of teens that know your pain.

My aunt killed herself in 2006, i know its 3 years ago, but it still hurts, just not as much.

I know that pain seems unbearable right now, but trust me, it will slowly get better.

I understand your pain.

If you ever need to talk to me, im just a PM away.

R.I.P Collin and Roxy

[CaptainObvious]

There's nothing wrong with feeling such strong feelings, especially if you cared for Collin a lot. The important thing now is to take care of yourself and keep moving forward; as time goes on, while you'll never forget and the pain will never totally disappear, it will become something you can live with. Until then, don't hesitate to get any help you need and to talk about it with people who love you. If you trust someone in your family enough to talk to about this, I'd suggest that, it could really help. You'll get through this.

[Eclipse]

I'm so sorry, I know this must be hard for you. He'll always be in your heart.