i need something

[wisse2012]

ok when i wan nine i was raped by my cuzin. well it started out i was at my aunts and me and my cuzin who at the time was 16 and we went on a walk in the woods well my aunt had this little cabin back in the woods wich we were stayin in that night just me and my cuz so we were goin back to set up the beds and stuff well when we got there he quickly turned for the worse. he threw me on the ground and pulled off his pants he told me to suck it. i refused and he pulled out his pocket knife and started cutting me on my arms untill i agreed to do it. i did that for a while till he told me to undress i did it after he shown me the knife again. hhe then turned me over and butt raped me. i was in so much pain crying so hard, i couldant scream or anything bc i was fearing for what he would do. after he cam in my butt he took a broom from the closet and stuck it up there he shoved it upp and my butt started bleeding a lot he made me shower while he cleaned up i never told anyone the cuts on my arms i told mom i went and we played in the woods and they were cuts caused by thorns. i have dreams each night about the rape. i cry all night i dont sleep much and i am paranoid i am scared thaat one day he is going to come kill me. the only person i have ever told is my bff im afraid to tell anyone in fear i mey get murdered.
any advice that doesnt involve telling parents bc i dont think i can tell on him.

please any help would be thanked

[Kahn]

Your cousin sounds like he has really bad problems if he would do that to a 9 year old. It also sounds like he's on drugs or drinks. If it still affects you this bad (The sleeping and Paranoia) you should either see a therapist or school counselor. I know it may be uncomfortable at first but you really need to see someone about this.

Also you don't need to do this but tell your parents about this. Maybe the right approach in doing this is telling them that he threatened you before you start telling them about the night. Then maybe before they tell the police or someone talk to you Aunt. One on One to tell her what happened.

This is very vital to your health so you must take action. Bottling up your emotions is not good and I advise you too do this not only to reassure yourself your O.K but now I'm worried about you. Hope this helps.

-Adam

[Discomposure]

I do think your parents should know about this, and like it's been said, you should go see a counsellor or therapist, things are getting to you, you obivously need to talk to someone profesional and who can properlly help you.

[Billy15]

Similar stuff like that happened to me to when I was little but not any of the violent stuff. What your cousin did was wrong (dead wrong ) and if he did that to you, chances are he'll do it to some other kid (or kids) or he may end up really hurting or killing someone if they refuse him. He violated you, he stole your innocence and it should be reported, he should be stopped and if not for you, then for other little kids out there. I know your scared but you really should tell someone.

[Alexthemightycricket]

hear me loud and clear the first step on the path of recovery is to admit what happened and seek help from an elder on this situation you can't be afraid of telling your parents or else you will just end up building up more fear and paranoia which could lead to sever depression, suicidal toughs, and sometime even cutting. (btw once you start cutting its very hard to stop.) plus your cousin who is 21 now (is that correct) could end up hurting more people like he did to you and its amazing that you have held this for so long. please consider telling someone like a parental please i begg of you. plus it will help you fell better and maybe you can get better help after you tell a parental.

[wisse2012]

hey guys thank u for the advice it means a life to me.. and i guess from what i am hearing i will ask my best friend to help me tell my parents and get him into jail so he cant hurt others. i never thought about him hurting other children so i want to put him where he should be

[irishboi102]

yea u need to tell so he wont do it again

[georgiamay]

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