Dibzy-Time
October 19th, 2009, 06:55 PM
Ive been getting sexually abused since i was 6, im 18 now. Its happend 2ce this year but it used to happen every day.
Im in a long term relationship with the love of my life who ive been with for just under 2 years. I cant trust him because of this abuse. I freak out alot, see the abusers in him alot and it him alot even though i dont mean to. I also cant controll my anger and am manic depressed.
I'm going through councelling for it but its not working. Ive tryed everything but its not working.
Im bisexual but even though ive thought abouit how id feel if i was with a girl i dont think that would help either as i cant commit in female relationships.
the last time it happend the main abuser beat me and hit me in the stomack when i was pregnant and i think made me have a miscarrige, its either because of him or stress.
I cant cope with nothing anymore. I cant tell no one because no one care. My partner nos and hes been sort of careing and help ful.
I dont wanna carry on being in a relationship where i cant trust and see the atakers in him.
I wanna die. I dont want to live. I over dose, self harm and try every way of killing myself but nothing works. I just wanna lay down and die and not let any1 help me.
I hate life because im constanly scared. SHOOT ME, IVE GOT NOTHING LEFT ANYMORE!! I MEAN IT!! :(:mad:
Im in a long term relationship with the love of my life who ive been with for just under 2 years. I cant trust him because of this abuse. I freak out alot, see the abusers in him alot and it him alot even though i dont mean to. I also cant controll my anger and am manic depressed.
I'm going through councelling for it but its not working. Ive tryed everything but its not working.
Im bisexual but even though ive thought abouit how id feel if i was with a girl i dont think that would help either as i cant commit in female relationships.
the last time it happend the main abuser beat me and hit me in the stomack when i was pregnant and i think made me have a miscarrige, its either because of him or stress.
I cant cope with nothing anymore. I cant tell no one because no one care. My partner nos and hes been sort of careing and help ful.
I dont wanna carry on being in a relationship where i cant trust and see the atakers in him.
I wanna die. I dont want to live. I over dose, self harm and try every way of killing myself but nothing works. I just wanna lay down and die and not let any1 help me.
I hate life because im constanly scared. SHOOT ME, IVE GOT NOTHING LEFT ANYMORE!! I MEAN IT!! :(:mad: