Damnit. I can't win.

[1_21Guns]

So I was sat talking to my mum, as always, and I had pj shorts on, she notices some rather strange bruiseing on my leg. Asks me 27 questions 'that looks like knuccle marks' ofc its only just dawned on me, I was oblivious at the time, but earlier I punched myself in the leg out of rage at myself. It wasnt deliberately done to hurt myself as such either. So now my mum probably thinks i'm being bullied because I keep getting bruiseing on my legs. Seriously, this is getting redic. I don't want a blade anymore, I knew it was nothing to me all along. But I never understood. Now i'm punching myself and various other things because i'm stressed. Atleast when I was cutting my stress levels were kept reasonably low...

[NightFighter]

I think it comes down to the fact that both of these methods are unhealthy.
You need to find other ways of controlling your stress. Instead of punching yourself you could punch a pillow. You said you didnt punch yourself to hurt so i think a pillow is a perfect altenative. If you want others then check out the Announcement.

You are right. You never need your blade. It will only make things worse. Remember, the relaxation you feel only lasts a few moments. Your stress level is only lowered for a short time. Is that short time worth the pain, scar, disappointment and disgust you feel? No.

Your mum will be worried about you. Give her no reason to be worried. Imagine if your child self harmed. You try to protect them against dangerous people and situations. Then you find out they harm themselves. They are a danger to themselves. And you cant protect them.

Imagine the pain she will feel.

Dont harm yourself.

Your mother cares.

[dstnyisurs]

Try to punch a pillow, or invest in karate classes or a punching bag of some sort. Perhaps try a sport to get some energy out. Do yoga. Meditate.
But please don't hurt yourself, love. You are so much better then the toxic addiction that is self-harm.

[Fusion]

Try to punch a pillow, or invest in karate classes or a punching bag of some sort. Perhaps try a sport to get some energy out. Do yoga. Meditate.
But please don't hurt yourself, love. You are so much better then the toxic addiction that is self-harm.

I agree with this poster :), it would be a good start, punching yourself can do permanent damage to body parts bones etc