Dead Inside...

[MysticalBurrito]

I feel dead...No purpose in life, No reason to drag myself out of bed in the morning...Nothing. This has been going on for months...I want to cut all the time...Yet my Dad is the one checking my arms now...I hate looking in the mirror and seeing this fat slob looking straight back at me. I can't sleep. I can't concentrate. My grade are falling. The only time I feel at peace is when I'm asleep. Which is rarely ever. I get 8-10 hours of sleep a week. On Saturdays I rarely get to sleep because my Mom yells at me to wake up and start working on the house. Oh another thing, My Dad, He puts too much pressure on me and my sister. We have four deadlines in the week. 3 for chores and one for homework if we don't get it done on time I get grounded from going anywhere, more homework, and get my laptop and mp3 player taken away. I feel stressed, I have emotional problems.
Then on top of that I don't/can't talk to anyone because most of my online/IRL friends have their own problems. I want to distance myself from everyone, make them hate my so they won't care when I end up killing myself...

[luvthissite]

forever, sorry to hear you are having problems. keep your chin up.

how are you feeling today? I hope you are feeling better.

i have had bad times in my life. one point i would cry for about an hour a day, for a couple weeks. A loved one left after visiting my family, I really cared for this person a lot, and i felt really unhappy they left. eventually i got over it.

you should talk to a professional, a school nurse would be a good start, or a school counselor. they are trained to help, and/or to direct you to someone who can help you.

also, i found walking to be a good way to lift my spirits, the exercise is good for me, and helps me clear my mind. try walking for a little while every day, and let us know if that helps you.

i hope you feel better. take care of yourself.

[Lily of the Valley]

1) You can't feel at peace when you're asleep. Know why? 'CAUSE YOU'RE ASLEEP.
2) Are you seriously complaining because you got your mp3 player and fucking laptop taken away? W. T. F.
3) I sincerely doubt your mom is yelling at you all night, from 9 at night to 9 in the morning, to do chores. I'm sure she lets you sleep.
4) Everyone has stress, and everyone has emotional problems.

The list could go on and on, but I'm lazy. My point is you're being way overdramatic about this, and you need to sit back and take a few minutes to mature and realise how good you have it.

~Maggot

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~Jetfire

[dead]

1) You can't feel at peace when you're asleep. Know why? 'CAUSE YOU'RE ASLEEP.
2) Are you seriously complaining because you got your mp3 player and fucking laptop taken away? W. T. F.
3) I sincerely doubt your mom is yelling at you all night, from 9 at night to 9 in the morning, to do chores. I'm sure she lets you sleep.
4) Everyone has stress, and everyone has emotional problems.

The list could go on and on, but I'm lazy. My point is you're being way overdramatic about this, and you need to sit back and take a few minutes to mature and realise how good you have it.

~Maggot

Wtf good you be anymore insulting?

[MysticalBurrito]

This was a while ago and you and your stupid "emo" shit can leave me alone. I'm not whining I needed to get that out, Everything was piling up.
You don't know half of what I go through and you never will you don't know my past. And yes I was upset because my laptop got taken away, you wanna know why? All my friends live two hours away and money is tight right now believe it or not and I can't make long distance calls when I need to talk to someone.
Fuck off.

[Lily of the Valley]

This was a while ago and you and your stupid "emo" shit can leave me alone. I'm not whining I needed to get that out, Everything was piling up.
You don't know half of what I go through and you never will you don't know my past. And yes I was upset because my laptop got taken away, you wanna know why? All my friends live two hours away and money is tight right now believe it or not and I can't make long distance calls when I need to talk to someone.
Fuck off.Oh, come on. I was 14 once too. It's easy to think you've got it harder than anyone else, but in reality, chances are your shit really isn't all that fucked up. And instead of going on about it, why don't you actually do something? Do your homework, do chores, get some sleep, etc. If you've got so much stress, sitting at the computer complaining to random people online about it isn't going to help.Wtf good you be anymore insulting?Assuming "good" is supposed to be "could," yes, yes I could. ;)

~Maggot

[MysticalBurrito]

I'm not complaining.
I came here to get advice, is this not a help forum?
Now can we be decent people and drop this?

[Lily of the Valley]

I'm not complaining.
I came here to get advice, is this not a help forum?
Now can we be decent people and drop this?Sure.

~Maggot

[overcome.]

I understand your feeling of darkness, little hope and faith, and no desire in basic life situations, such as getting out of bed in the morning. I know the feeling of not wanting to get out of bed because you simply feel like there's nothing to get up for, and it's just another day of feeling like absolute crap. Here's what I did, I focused on something that was going to better me in many ways, and I stuck at it and I stick to it at this day. This was a collective of goals for myself to strive towards, keep a positive attitude about and get up in the morning for.

Set yourself goals, goals can help you in life. For starters, in theory you'll achieve if you do the right things, if you don't, they're simply life learning experiences that you'll be thankful for later on at some point. Goals can be anything you'd want to put your mind too. A good example could be school work, you could focus on certain subjects and really get some good grades in the process. Even something like writing which you may enjoy like story writing, a personal diary, poetry, reading, etc. Sporting goals worked for me, I quit a sport earlier on when I started with anxiety problems and got real down, I was a county level athlete technically I guess and tried out for England before. I moved on, I got into bodybuilding and it's seen me through some of the darkest days of my life, to this very day.

This is just my opinion, I mean I think goals are good things to work towards. The benefits can vary and help you in many different ways, it depends what you do. Intelligence, confidence, self esteem, meeting new people, and many many other things can stem from the goals you set if you reach them.

I know the feeling also about how parents can be very expecting of even 'stupid' things, like wanting you to get up early and disturbing sleep in the process, that's just one example. Or chores even too. At the end of the day I know you may not appreciate this now because it's not what you think of on first thought - but they want the best for you. They want you to have a brilliant life by getting good grades in school, exceeding in personal projects, finding your own way in life and gaining some knowledge of what it's like to live on your own in the real world (chores). You can achieve the best, and these will be the days that you look back on and appreciate how well you overcame some of the hardest days in your youth.

I hope I helped in some way.