i feel like my life is ending.

[DecemberRain]

I have no idea what to do. I can't think straight, I can't stop crying, I'm shaking. I feel sick to my stomach. I've got the biggest headache ever. And I feel like self harming again. My boyfriend told me he thinks he might be gay or bi and he still likes me just doesn't know how. I am scared to death of losing him. And its not just scared, its like a phobia. I'm lost and don't know what to do. I can't breath. My heart hurts so much right now. And knowing that I can't do anything about it makes it so much worse. I actually wish I could turn into a man. I don't see the point in living anymore if I can't be with him. I can't see myself without him. I don't want anybody but him. I'm just idk. I can't even explain it. Its just I feel so helpless and so scared. I can't breath. I'm in love with him.

[Hyper]

Well its been awhile now since You posted..

I hope your calmed down

There isn't anything you can do but wait and see how it goes.

[DecemberRain]

Idk. I know there's nothing I can do. And I really want to be there for him. And I will support him no matter what. But when I woke up this morning I couldn't even see, I actually fell down the stairs because I couldn't see anything. I don't know if the two are linked or its just coincidence or something. But I don't know what to do.

[Hyper]

I'd say you were having an anxiety attack, that's all.

[DecemberRain]

Thank you for your help

[Hyper]

Thank you for your help

Try to stay as patient as possible, if you have another attack the bag trick works well, but for me a glass of wine used to solve it x.x

[DecemberRain]

Yea..I'de end up having to go with the bag trick next time because I don't have wine available.

[Shenron]

Well we all know how much we enjoy wine but.....

The problem with your vision is not consistent with an anxiety attack, and I tend to not like coincidences. I would go see a doctor about the physical symptoms.

As for your boyfriend, he said he still loves you, so I don't understand what the problem is there.

[nick]

From what you've said it doesn't sound as if your boyfriend wants to split up with you. You should take it as a great compliment that he felt able to share that information with you and not try to hide the truth from you. It sounds as if he's probably pretty confused about it himself at the moment and probably needs your love and support as much as you need his.

You have to allow him to think things out for himself a bit, its not as if he has any choice really, but at the end of the day if he's bi but wants to carry on his relationship with you then, as long as he doesnt cheat on you, nothing has really changed.

Hope it works out for you.

[DecemberRain]

Yea I know that. And I'm there for him no matter what he chooses. And I realize he can't help how he feels. And I would have no problem with him being bi its just the fact he might be gay that scares me. Only because I don't want to lose him. And he knows this. My feelings for him won't change no matter what happens and I'll always be there for him and I am thankful that he did trust me to tell me and not hide it from me. And he isn't the type to cheat anyways so I would be fine with continuing a relationship with him.

[Kaius]

I know it may not be the same thing, but i feel exactly the same as you at the moment. My girlfriend of two years just left me for another guy. If you need to talk or anything pm me. :)

[embertin]

Hi
I believe that everyone questions how happy they are at every stage of their life. We are petrified of making mistakes, getting it wrong and ending up miserable.
When I get low it is usually caused by a "trigger". A lyric, lack of money, a sad movie, another bill, the news, a friends success, disappointment and the most regular cause for me becoming bored. I to like many others have a nice home, loving family and good job and 100 hobbies etc. From the outside all should be well, and for the majority of the time it is.