Really Need Help

[Kaius]

Ive been with my girlfriend just over two years, although its long distance. Anyway, we argued two weeks ago and split, to which id realised id made a mistake and apologised and said i was sorry, and i didnt want to lose her. But she wouldnt take me back, or even consider it. Ive lost quite a few people in my life time, through death, walking out of my life, so this hit me really quite hard. Well it carried on, the same routine day and night for the last few weeks, we'd argue. I took up drinking in this time. Last night when logging onto facebook, my brower saves log in, info which i still had hers from helping her with her settings a while ago and as i had the same initials at the start of the email address i accidentally logged into hers, and a convo came up. It was with her friend about how much she likes another guy. Now i dont know what to do, this has completely torn me apart, so badly i havent even been able to go into college. Now..im tied. I told her last night that i wanted her back, and i told her everything i felt and more, and she kicked me back..and told me no chance again. That was my last chance as shes at college with him and i know for sure that something is going to happen, and im just going to be forgotten. theres messages i think are purposely left for me to see to get jealous on their facebooks. The girl i still really want to be friends with, as its all i can have from her now. As my friend blake, is going through a battle with a brain tumour for the second time, its taking its toll on me and i really need her to be there for me, because shes the only one ican really talk to.
Im beginning to have suicidal thoughts..and ive started to self harm badly, im not eating its making me ill. i cant stand feeling like this anymore..what can i do. i really need help.

[Shenron]

Well, firstly I would suggest not dwelling on the fact that she left you. Also, I would try talking to a professional about these issues. AND STOP CUTTING!!!!!!! Cutting is a bad addiction that is VERY hard to overcome and at times impossible. I have said this same thing so many times but I will say it again: Go jogging or play basketball or something that involves physical activity. Cutting releases endorphins which is what makes you feel good. Well guess what, physical activity does that as well. Also try to distract yourself, music is VERY powerful, that can be an escape in and of itself.

[Harley Quinn]

As the saying goes "the time comes for a man to mpve along"
You need to try to stop cutting, i know it can be hard but in the long run its better for you of you stop while you can. You have to seek medical help because these problems your going through wont go away on their own. The girl if she is trying to make you jealous it shows that she didnt really care in the first place. Try to distract yourself from all of this and seek professional help.

:) Siobhan

[kbear]

dont do it. think of the future when you are going on job interveiws, dates, meeting new people and having to explain your self. things WILL get better. its not worth it. 15 years down the track my scars have caued me deep shame and embarressment. think of the long term damage, and find anothr way to beat it. fight the urge

[CuriousDestruction]

please don't bump old threads. why is this being bumped?!

[The Batman]

Please don't bump old threads :locked: