addiction..? help :S

[vicky06kay]

Well.. I started cutting three years ago really bad. I got found out after id messed my arms up pretty bad and moved onto my thighs. My mum and dad sent me to see someone and it really helped. :)

I was fine for about a year and a half, but then my mum and dad divorced and i was sent to live with my dad. God i missed my mum.. i felt like i had no one so my trusted companion came back! the razor blade was my life line.. cutting helped me escape!

Its been a year since then and i have been suffering some really deep depression! I want to find release, someone closed to me died and i just want to be free.. no one would know if i did it.. the blade its my only device for sanity. I need help! Please!!!:(

[Shenron]

This is not true at all. Cutting is the last thing you should consider a release. The most feasible solution would be to talk to someone and get help. Cutting will not help, it may make you feel good for the moment, but later on down the road, it will just depress you when you go to stop and you can't. As you know fro experience, the desire to cut keeps coming back, but you have to resis, otherwise it becomes a never-ending cycle.

Hope I helped :)

[Hyper]

Well your parents sound like reasonable people and if your willing to admit you need help then you can actually be helped.

Tell your dad or if you can't tell him, your mother can't be too far away even for a phone call? The point is tell someone, if you were helped before by a professional I'm sure you can see the logic in seeing one again.

[Cloud]

lifes a bitch
it truly is
shit happens to people everyday and screws it up
but they find alternative means to cope

and one of them
is talking to someone
you said yourself tat seeing someone helped you last time
so why not see someone again?
your dad helped you see someone last time
so why not talk to him about it?

[NightFighter]

Yeah, you should definately go and see someone again. Im positive your dad will help you out again.
Also, think about the person who died. They would feel awful if they knew you wanted to self harm because of their death. You have to resist. I dont know what your beliefs are of the after life but theres a chance that they could be looking down on you so try your hardest to be strong for them. Maybe you could try writing a poem about them to let out all your emotions.


Right now you are the only one who knows you self harm but if you continue the scars will become deeper, more noticeable and will never fade. You always live in fear of someone noticing and asking you about the scars so you'll have to hide them from your friend, parents, partner and maybe your future children. Do you like going swimming? getting a massage? playing sports? Imagine being too scared to get a massage or go swimming because someone might notice them. Imagine having to cover up your scars while playing sports when you get so hot you desperately want to take off all unnecessary clothing.

Dont give in.
It isnt worth it.