Abuse to myself

[HandsomeFreak]

I have been with a girl, well cuddling and kissing, but when it comes to going further I physically feel sick, I end up pulling away or making excuses to leave her.

Masterbation has got worse and more violent, I end up sicking a the pointy end of a fork onto my penis to 'wake it up', I don't know what I want from life but I already feel quite isolated when it comes to such a brittle matter.. what can I do?!

[Shenron]

Masterbation has got worse and more violent, I end up sicking a the pointy end of a fork onto my penis to 'wake it up'

:zap: oh my.....that can't be healthy. Please do not do that again, I am wincing from the thought.

As for the rest of your problem, what is causing it? Did something happen between you and your gf? Or is tit because you get nervous and can't bring yourself to have sex with her? If I know this, I can provide better advice. For now the only thing I have to say is: sharp things+penis=pain. It's just not sensible.

[escape]

omg, anyone talking about sticking stuff up their genitals is freaking me out. Dont ever do that again. :/ owwww

[clone]

omg that sounds painful!!! it hurts to think about it

[Fusion]

I have been with a girl, well cuddling and kissing, but when it comes to going further I physically feel sick, I end up pulling away or making excuses to leave her.

You might be going through a phase I know a few people on another teen forum that this has happened to, are you attracted to guys at all?

Masterbation has got worse and more violent, I end up sicking a the pointy end of a fork onto my penis to 'wake it up', I don't know what I want from life but I already feel quite isolated when it comes to such a brittle matter.. what can I do?!

Don't stick that into your penis you can do really serious damage, are you having any troubles in your life social? at home? sighting abuse etc?, this could contribute to it
Find something you like to do aka a hobby (e.g. Tennis, Trains etc) and then get involved with other people socially :)