amongthefirst
October 8th, 2009, 06:19 PM
Considering the length of this dream, no one will read it. :P
His name is Ivan and he's one of my crushes (I have three). Ivan is beautiful, funny, smart, and kind. He's straight in real life but in my dream he's not, or at least confused. Just thought I would share that with you. :D
Anyway, the dream starts off with us in our APES class. We're doing some type of lab and then all of a sudden I tell him, "Meet me after school" or something like that. I don't remember how I got to asking him that but I did. The next thing I can remember is that we were sitting on my bed. And then we sat closer and looked at each other. I knew he wanted to kiss me and he looked pretty nervous about it. So I turned off the light (my blinds were closed and it was nighttime) and the next thing I remember is his soft lips touching mine. And we kissed and kept kissing (not in a crazy way, more like romantic). I had never felt so happy in my entire life. This is the part I don't remember too well: he said something about leaving but he couldn't easily leave because my brother and mother were home and they'd suspect something (my mother knows I'm gay but my brother doesn't, and it's not like I'd have a random friend over at that time), which in real life I would've come downstairs to greet everyone...so that part of the dream is confusing. Anyway, we finally decide that it would be best for him to sleep with me. Here's the other odd part: the only exit was through my brother's room while he was sleeping, so we'd have to wake up around 3-4am so he could sneak out through my brother's window in his room without waking him up. Well, we laid down on my bed and he just grabbed me and hugged me for as long as I could remember. Eventually it was time for him to leave so he then entered my brother's room. I went back to sleep thinking that it wouldn't be too difficult to sneak through my brother's window without getting caught. Apparently my brother woke up because he heard noises in his room and attacked Ivan with his pillow (I think it was his pillow, I don't remember this part too well). Ivan was knocked out (LOL) and then my brother started shouting "Mom! Mom! Mom!" And then she woke up and rushed to his room and then they both screamed my name! So I came rushing out of my room not really knowing what had happened. Then my brother asked, "WHO IS HE?!" and then my mom yelled, "IS THIS THE BOY YOU'VE BEEN TEXTING?!" (In real life before I had this dream yesterday, I kept texting my friend about a project we have to work on so in my dream I guess my mom thought it was a boy.) So I replied with, "WHAT BOY, MOM?! WHAT ARE YOU GUYS TALKING ABOUT?!" That's when I noticed Ivan on the floor (LOL again) and then I freaked. That's all I remember about THAT PART of the dream. One of the other parts was that Ivan and I were at the mall together with some girl (I'm trying to remember who the girl was but I can't). Anyway, at the mall Ivan grabbed my hand and we started walking together. And I think someone saw us (can't remember :[) and then the next thing I remember is me being in my mom's car on the way home (Ivan wasn't with me at that part). She was talking with a loud voice to my brother on the phone about something. And then she put the phone near my ear and my brother said something about "What are the counselors' numbers at school?! What are they?! I'm going to talk to them RIGHT NOW!" I was confused at what he was talking about. Anyway, the next part of the dream was that my brother and mother had found out that I'm gay. And they were screaming and yelling like I had never heard them before. Then the doorbell rings and it's Ivan and his parents (someone told his parents about us...it was probably my brother...can't remember though). More screaming and yelling came from both sides (mine and Ivan's). His parents kept shouting "YOUR SON THIS...! YOUR SON THAT...!" This is the sad part about the dream and the ending that sort of reflects my life. After everyone finished arguing I held onto Ivan but then his dad grabbed him away and I started screaming and crying and then he started screaming and crying, then my brother pulled me away and then I tried grabbing Ivan's hand and he tried grabbing my hand as they were pulling us away and then finally the door just shuts and the dream ends. The ending kind of reminds me of how Romeo and Juliet were not allowed to be together. :(
Sorry for this long dream but I wanted to share it with someone since my friends don't know I'm gay. I know some parts don't make sense because I can't remember too well how everything happened. But this is by far the GREATEST dream I've ever had (except the ending). The reason I said that the ending reflects my life is because I always crush on guys I can't get (they're always straight since almost all the gay guys at my school are effeminate and I don't find that attractive). Not only that but the whole Ivan's parents taking him away is what I feel because since no one but my mom knows I'm gay, I feel that me telling people will make them hate me and take my "gayness" anyway. That made no sense whatsoever but I can't explain it. It's like...there's a wall between me and being gay--a barrier. Like, I can never enjoy myself because I'm not like most guys and I'm afraid of what people will say when they find out.
If you actually read ALL OF THIS, thank you so much! :D
His name is Ivan and he's one of my crushes (I have three). Ivan is beautiful, funny, smart, and kind. He's straight in real life but in my dream he's not, or at least confused. Just thought I would share that with you. :D
Anyway, the dream starts off with us in our APES class. We're doing some type of lab and then all of a sudden I tell him, "Meet me after school" or something like that. I don't remember how I got to asking him that but I did. The next thing I can remember is that we were sitting on my bed. And then we sat closer and looked at each other. I knew he wanted to kiss me and he looked pretty nervous about it. So I turned off the light (my blinds were closed and it was nighttime) and the next thing I remember is his soft lips touching mine. And we kissed and kept kissing (not in a crazy way, more like romantic). I had never felt so happy in my entire life. This is the part I don't remember too well: he said something about leaving but he couldn't easily leave because my brother and mother were home and they'd suspect something (my mother knows I'm gay but my brother doesn't, and it's not like I'd have a random friend over at that time), which in real life I would've come downstairs to greet everyone...so that part of the dream is confusing. Anyway, we finally decide that it would be best for him to sleep with me. Here's the other odd part: the only exit was through my brother's room while he was sleeping, so we'd have to wake up around 3-4am so he could sneak out through my brother's window in his room without waking him up. Well, we laid down on my bed and he just grabbed me and hugged me for as long as I could remember. Eventually it was time for him to leave so he then entered my brother's room. I went back to sleep thinking that it wouldn't be too difficult to sneak through my brother's window without getting caught. Apparently my brother woke up because he heard noises in his room and attacked Ivan with his pillow (I think it was his pillow, I don't remember this part too well). Ivan was knocked out (LOL) and then my brother started shouting "Mom! Mom! Mom!" And then she woke up and rushed to his room and then they both screamed my name! So I came rushing out of my room not really knowing what had happened. Then my brother asked, "WHO IS HE?!" and then my mom yelled, "IS THIS THE BOY YOU'VE BEEN TEXTING?!" (In real life before I had this dream yesterday, I kept texting my friend about a project we have to work on so in my dream I guess my mom thought it was a boy.) So I replied with, "WHAT BOY, MOM?! WHAT ARE YOU GUYS TALKING ABOUT?!" That's when I noticed Ivan on the floor (LOL again) and then I freaked. That's all I remember about THAT PART of the dream. One of the other parts was that Ivan and I were at the mall together with some girl (I'm trying to remember who the girl was but I can't). Anyway, at the mall Ivan grabbed my hand and we started walking together. And I think someone saw us (can't remember :[) and then the next thing I remember is me being in my mom's car on the way home (Ivan wasn't with me at that part). She was talking with a loud voice to my brother on the phone about something. And then she put the phone near my ear and my brother said something about "What are the counselors' numbers at school?! What are they?! I'm going to talk to them RIGHT NOW!" I was confused at what he was talking about. Anyway, the next part of the dream was that my brother and mother had found out that I'm gay. And they were screaming and yelling like I had never heard them before. Then the doorbell rings and it's Ivan and his parents (someone told his parents about us...it was probably my brother...can't remember though). More screaming and yelling came from both sides (mine and Ivan's). His parents kept shouting "YOUR SON THIS...! YOUR SON THAT...!" This is the sad part about the dream and the ending that sort of reflects my life. After everyone finished arguing I held onto Ivan but then his dad grabbed him away and I started screaming and crying and then he started screaming and crying, then my brother pulled me away and then I tried grabbing Ivan's hand and he tried grabbing my hand as they were pulling us away and then finally the door just shuts and the dream ends. The ending kind of reminds me of how Romeo and Juliet were not allowed to be together. :(
Sorry for this long dream but I wanted to share it with someone since my friends don't know I'm gay. I know some parts don't make sense because I can't remember too well how everything happened. But this is by far the GREATEST dream I've ever had (except the ending). The reason I said that the ending reflects my life is because I always crush on guys I can't get (they're always straight since almost all the gay guys at my school are effeminate and I don't find that attractive). Not only that but the whole Ivan's parents taking him away is what I feel because since no one but my mom knows I'm gay, I feel that me telling people will make them hate me and take my "gayness" anyway. That made no sense whatsoever but I can't explain it. It's like...there's a wall between me and being gay--a barrier. Like, I can never enjoy myself because I'm not like most guys and I'm afraid of what people will say when they find out.
If you actually read ALL OF THIS, thank you so much! :D