Bored

[grass]

I'm bored man, really f-ing bored, having 2 friends is amazingly limiting. Especially when one of them won't speak to you and the only form you feel comfortable talking in is text. I don't know why I do it, I honestly don't.
Its like I've set myself along this path to psychosis but I'm nowhere near achieving that, and now I'm too stubborn to admit that this is the wrong way to live my life.

I have people that like me, I could pick up the phone tomorow call some people go out and the crazy thing is I'd have a good time, I'd actually have fun but I'm not gonna do that.

Instead I'll get up check some websites and about half an hour after getting up I'll just start playing computer games or something in an attempt to distract myself until the evening when I can go back to sleep.

Every day in my life is just one big distraction from itself, I sometimes wonder why I bother and how this cycle is ever going to be broken, I mean if I'm not willing to help myself, even when I can see whats wrong then what hope is there?

I don't get it, has anyone heard of a disease or a syndrome where pure laziness makes you a prisoner to yourself ? I like to think it would be easier if I knew there was actually something wrong with me but to be honest thats probably just fantasy and in reality I'm just too lazy for my own good.

[Hyper]

Its either called wallowing in teenage self pity or depression

Or maybe extreme sloth?

Either way you answered your own problems in your OP and I think your smart enough to KNOW how to help yourself the only thing you really need to be 100% aware of is do you want to have fun with your friends, people you know.. Or do you want to keep on living like this, eyes glued to your computer screen day after day

[Lost and Confused1]

I believe this could be like depression .. Do you just not want to have friends? Or do you want them? If you want them, maybe you could try picking up a hobby, that will get you out of the house, and meeting new people.

[grass]

lol Teenage self pity would be nice, unfortunately I'm 23 (enough to be considerd and old man on these boards)

Most people grow out of thier problems, I just didn't and the fact that I've been living this way for the past 3 or 4 years would imply to me that I have no desire to help myself.

There must just be a part of me that likes feeling completely alone.

But I wasn't really looking for answers, just wanted to get it off my chest, they are people way more deserving of help on this forum than me.

[TexasRangersKid]

hey dude i have only 3 besties and no brother its wat ive always craved so there

[Shenron]

Honestly, I am close to the same way. I just moved from GA to VA, and left all my friends in GA, I miss them all everyday and wish I was there. I haven't really made any friends at my new school so that's not an option. They way I keep myself going is by posting advice and helping people on forums like these. I know I am giving someone else comfort and making their life better, so I can cope with my own problems. Also, I see posts from people who are ALOT worse off than I am now. I used to be suicidal, and I have seen and been through more shit that most people twice my age, so I can give good advice and use my experience to benifit others.

Hope I helped :) If you want to talk or have any questions, please pm me :)

[Shalom]

I feel you need to get out more, do things you enjoy find people you like. Maybe try a relationship? I'm sure you can find the self-confidence to get out there and be proactive! Do things for yourself, and think to yourself "I can do this!" because you can do it! Maybe shorten your time on the computer and find other things to do, break off slowly. Or maybe a job? There are so many options! Life is endless until its truly gone so live it up! :)

[Hyper]

lol Teenage self pity would be nice, unfortunately I'm 23 (enough to be considerd and old man on these boards)

Most people grow out of thier problems, I just didn't and the fact that I've been living this way for the past 3 or 4 years would imply to me that I have no desire to help myself.

There must just be a part of me that likes feeling completely alone.

But I wasn't really looking for answers, just wanted to get it off my chest, they are people way more deserving of help on this forum than me.

If your thinking about and admitting your problems there is a desire.

Laziness, I'd call it that, is like being really really fat.. And sitting on a gigantic couch, the longer you keep your immobile ass on it the lower it sinks.

If you can't get moving on your own you need to seek help

Also your probably the oldest dude still on VT x.x

[Holding On*]

"Also your probably the oldest dude still on VT x.x "

Probably because VT = Virtual TEEN? xD. 23 is hardly considered a teen tbh. :P

lol

and its not depression. its just boredom. tbqh.
If you are 23, then go get a job - get busy! thatll get some hours of the day out the way.
joina club - no boredom PLUS new friends :)

[Golddron]

If you can find something that sparks your interest, follow it. Finding a hobby is also a good thing to look into.

[Lost_and_fallen]

This is probably the most positive I've heard you be in a while, but I still want more from you. I know that you want more - I hope you've given up on what you used to describe as your destiny, and I hope that's made you want to challenge the way you're living at the moment. If you're stuck here, make the most of it. You might not want to make the effort of that, but maybe it's time you tried anyway.
I'll be waiting
xx

[Cinderandsmoke]

I am the exact same way. I guess i just need better friends. I guess i don't likethat they don't understand me.

[clone]

im similar but a lot younger i make no new friends i got about 10 and im slowly losing them i just... dont fit in no one in my school cares about anyone its horrible they call evetyone faggots and joke about rape its fucked up they thing all cutters are emo drug users and it just sucks because im not like them.

[grass]

Doesn't get any easier, I'd suggest making friends while your at school or uni cos at least your always around people, Once you leave you realise how selfish people are, you pretty much have to force yourself on people for them to take any notice, unfortunately I'm just not the kind of person to impose myself on other peoples lives so I just kinda fall by the wayside. I'd recommend getting used to putting yourself out and about, that way you'll find it alot easier to get friends.

[Blank]

maybe pick up a hobby? one that can help you socialize, that will make things easier for you as you will share the same interest as the people around you, thus making it easier to communicate

[Eclipse]

I used to be the same way, maybe get a job, get a hobby.