i need reassurance

[diamond jetstream]

i dont want to put my foot forward anymore
i dont care if you dont like my voice ad i think if you say one more thing to me im going to hit you in the head with a red bull bottle that ive kept in my bag for some time waiting to connect with your skull motherfucker.i wouldnt think twice about cutting anyones throat who makes me feel worse than i already feel.lastly i wish both my parnts wer dead and i wish i was dead sometimes. right now i want to jump off a bridge and not have to worry about my future nd the only thing stopping me is my bf who i love but havent told. if you think you can cheer me up then please,try because even as i type this message i dont see the point in typing the next word ..... ?:(:(:(:(

[Delusion15]

Buddy i can't cheer you up unless you want to be happy. Dude you need to sit down take a deep breath and think about what you have. The people on this website are here to help people like you however no one can help someone who doesn't want to help them selfs. Talk to your boy friend about how you are feeling. I have depression and it was always my girlfriend who cheered me up when i was down. Oh and Remember i am here if you ever need to vent or talk to someone just pm me is all you have to do. Your only 16 life can't get better unless you want it to.

[diamond jetstream]

thanks ill work on it

[lipstick_kisses23]

we all have felt this way before wether it was two years ago or yesterday. people who usually type things like this are 10 times out of 10 awesome people the world cant live without, your boyfriend needs you to be strong for him and im sure his soul would be ripped in two if he ever found out something happend to you. Life can sometimes be bullshit but its hard for everyone, so what do we do? We give it the middle finger and just keep on walking =]. Things always get worse before they get better, but when it does get better you're going to kick yourself for ever feeling the way you are now. I dont know you, but you are probably a beautiful person with the soul of ten thousand hot spartan guys and we need you around =].

~Kuppy~

[Shenron]

Sorry for the late reply,

Don't get ahead of yourself! You do not need to die now. Take a step back, look at thing from another standpoint. Everyone feels this way at some point in their life. I used to feel this way, and still do every now and again. I have tried to take my own life before, trust me, it isn't worth it. I lost everything, my girlfriend left me, my mom freaked and took the door off my room (I locked the door and OD'd on vicodin) She put padlocks on all the medicine cabinets, and life was not fun at all. Even now, I have a boyfriend (I'm bi) but I went through 2 other boyfriends and 1 other girlfriend because when they found out I had attempted, they told me I was crazy, and left me. Life can be hard sometimes, but we all have to push through it.

[diamond jetstream]

thanks heaps people i dont feel suicidal anymore but i still feel extremely depressed and everything else i said but ill just have to live with it until i can leave the horrible place that i wouldnt even call home.