I'm going to cut myself apart....

[Darkness]

Hell, I'm fucked up, I now want to cut... this is the third time I've wanted too... the other time was two weeks ago, the other: last night, I got up out of bed got a knife from the drawer and pressed it against my skin, luckily I went and put it back but... well I really don't know what to do... :(, I'm not leaving here... you lot and what you do, and the problems you so valiantly face... they aren't triggering to me... only her face is... I'm miss her so badly... I can't tell her,she might think I'm doing it because she did it... I know she wouldn't but, I can't think anything else... I only told one person about this... She's on here... Shit if I tell anyone in real life they will go bloody insane... Honestly I'm wondering if I should see a quack... Please help if you can. :(

[Hanabanana]

Hey, man I remember doing that too, I remember as I went to cut and could fele the blade on my skin I just remember thinking about my boyfirend and that stopped me. when I was trying to quit I got the same kind of urges as well as when I first started, like nothing else could help me get out of feeling so crap, even the slighest thing seemed to make me want to again. When you want to take like 10 deep breaths and try and get yourself out of that situation, go for a walk-fresh air, clear your head and try to think of any way that could help you be distracted and try to clear your head.
You need to talk to someone, someone you feel you can trust and who will not judge you, but make sure they know to keep it confidential. You could talk to a councellor but you may find it quite hard to open up completely.
xx

[Darkness]

Ok I'll try and find a councilor since all the people I know would take a total freak out... don't know where though, the walking thing I already do, I did even before I wanted to cut, it helps a little, I'm taking alot of baths too. Thanks.

[mrmcdonaldduck]

talking to a councillor would be the best option, it might be hard but it will help.

[nick]

Please try not to make that first cut. I've never done it, but I guess the second would be easier than the first and so on, so fight like hell not to make that first one.

If you ever just need someone to sound off to, to get stuff off your chest, or just to talk, you can get me on skype or msn. I'll send you the details.

[MadManWithaBox]

Don't. Its stupid, and self destructive. You get addicted. You tell yourself you can quit at anytime, but you always find yourself reaching for the razor. Soon you feel like you have to cut, to feel anything, to be happy, sad, any emotion at all. Don't, if you need to talk, pm me.

[Darkness]

I cut myself... I don't know if it counts or not because I wasn't trying too, I was taking the razor head off a tazor razor, you know the gold ones that turn into tooth brushes, but I did it in this stupid way, so I sliced my first finger on my right hand, not deep though, It didn't even hurt, wasn't even my damn razor. So was that self harm? :(

[nick]

If it was an accident then no, I would say not.

[Removed]

Well in my opinion i just like my skin as it is i had an urge to cut once... But i tried it, had no effect and quit i guess it was easier quitting because i didn't even start the real thing... I'm glad i didn't :) You shouldn't too...

[Darkness]

Thanks, :).

[svlust06]

I am going to say no it won't help in the end. Its best to not even start i have been cutting for like ugggh sincee I was 8 and i am 19 now I have about good 400+ cuts on my arm and other places on my body and I really am now getting some real help for it but ut a very addictive thing to do and you should not even try the first one..

[Shalom]

You replied thanks, I want to know how you are doing? If you read this! Hopefully all is well, you have to encourage yourself not to cut it is the opposite of what you should be doing. Find ways to get out of that! :)

[Darkness]

I'm currently- stable, that is, I want to cut but I'm not going too do it, mainly thanks to you guys, ;).

[Charleigh]

im a weirdo lol, but i actually open up to my photo album, try it

a picture of someone, pretend they are alive and in ront of you not on paper and just talk away to it, it really helps me but there you go lmao x