What should I do?

[chelsay13]

Okay... I feel alone, but I'm not. I have friends, I have family, I've got everything...But in my highschool...it's hard to explain. In middle school my teachers knew about my cutting problems. They knew I'm stopping and yet struggling. But in highschool...even though my hs and ms are connected... I don't have a single adult that "knows" me. I have a teacher who had us right about a memory. Instead, I said "i remember october 24th, 2008. The day I lost all trust in myself and my heart was shattered. I would rather not explain it though." and she replied saying it's fine and I can tell her if i need to chat. But thing is...I do want to tell her, i want to talk to her. I want to have a single adult in my school who understand me, but not like in middle school when everyone knew...I just want someone to understand me... it's hard t explain, and this is stupid... but what do you guys think? should i talk to her? if so...should i explain everything or just tell her little things spread out over time?

alsol there's a new group against self-destructive decisions..and one of my teachers wants me to join, but only because my leadership skills. I'm not sure... how hypocritical would that be if i were to join?

[Darkness]

I think you should join the group, it might help even if it doesn't it won't hurt you.
On the teacher, try telling her a couple of things, and judge it from there, so yeah little things over time.

[rukiayua]

i know exactly how you feel, for the telling the teach, i would do whatever you feel like, it's incredibly hard, but i would try to tell her/him slowly, but surely.but the hypocritical group thing, naw its not hypocritical at all. i would also try to find at least one friend that you can trust with this kinda stuff..it doesn't have to be like a best friend, but i would really try to find at least one friend for help

good luck

[Discomposure]

If you want to tell your teacher, then do it. It helps getting things off your mind, and as darkness said, say a few things and see how you feel about it. However, give it time, sometimes you might say something to somone and regret it for a few days but then you may begin to feel better about getting it off your chest. Also, this group sounds like a good idea, give yourself some more confidence, it sounds like you do anyway because you said your leadership skills.

All the best :)

[chelsay13]

Ok, yeah, I'm joining the group.
But how am I supposed to start out?

[Ortizitthisone]

From the way this post was written, it sounds like you just started high school recently, and your posted age would indicate the same. Sounds like you might just want to take some time and let things flow as they will, especially with this teacher. You can't expect people just to know you, you have to let them learn about you. Use those leadership skills to teach other people about you and your experiences!

[chelsay13]

I think you're right, and yeah, i started like a month ago. I'm building trust in her, just by saying hi and going in before or after class with help on some things.