nachtspiegel
September 20th, 2009, 10:28 PM
I'm not trying to turn this into a long, mopey rant, but I just want to let some things go.
This past month has been a lot to handle, but I was making it fine. I've been stressed, aggravated, and wearing myself thin, but I was handling it. The one thing that I cannot as easily deal with is when my spirit and my heart are crushed on top of the rest of it. I have a bad habit of putting too much of myself into the things that I do. This time, it was a person. The details aren't really necessary, but I didn't think that she could make me feel this way. It usually takes a long time to touch my exterior as a whole because I've made myself that way.
This past month has been a lot, but that topped it off.
I wear two faces, one that's strong, uncaring, charming, and cunning, and the other that is crushed and emotional. I'm wearing the strong face while having the crushed exterior. I haven't had a serious mood swing in almost a month.
I've been having thoughts that I shouldn't and it's against me. That's about all I really want to say right now. I hope that it'll help to have let that much loose. Usually I regret including the details.
This past month has been a lot to handle, but I was making it fine. I've been stressed, aggravated, and wearing myself thin, but I was handling it. The one thing that I cannot as easily deal with is when my spirit and my heart are crushed on top of the rest of it. I have a bad habit of putting too much of myself into the things that I do. This time, it was a person. The details aren't really necessary, but I didn't think that she could make me feel this way. It usually takes a long time to touch my exterior as a whole because I've made myself that way.
This past month has been a lot, but that topped it off.
I wear two faces, one that's strong, uncaring, charming, and cunning, and the other that is crushed and emotional. I'm wearing the strong face while having the crushed exterior. I haven't had a serious mood swing in almost a month.
I've been having thoughts that I shouldn't and it's against me. That's about all I really want to say right now. I hope that it'll help to have let that much loose. Usually I regret including the details.