last night

[ackmedsgirl666]

kk move this if this is in the wrong place....

so last night me and my now boyfriend( same one as always we just got back together) started talking on msn. this has been the first time in a while. so last night he went offline and came back on but i didn't know. he im'ed me asking me to accept his webcam request so i did. earlier that night we had been talking about him jacking off for me over the cam. so anyways i open the window and accept and then close it again. i was talking to him on the phone at the same time and i open back up his window and see his penis fully exposed on the screen( is this considered msn porn?)
anyways he started jacking off and i was really into it. <explicit details removed> hes an average 5" 35 cm and he'll be 15 on monday. i thought it looked funnt because u could see his whole head and it looked different from my past ex's penis. just curious could he possibly be circumsized im too afraid to ask him(this is the first time i have ever seen his penis but also he wants to have sex with me and i really want to but now i am scared of the pain(i'm a virgin) i have been told it will hurt(he is also a virgin) and another question. can someone explain the pulsing i kept feeling in my vagina when he was masterbating on the cam and then when i saw him come the pulse was quicker and faster??
any ideas
Help!!!!!

[alex95]

hm.. you all got me masturbating nice story lol ugh... it will hrut since ur a virgin... but you guys can take it slow get some oil lol (dont have to lissin to me im a virgin) but i think the pulsing was you geting horny lol

[ackmedsgirl666]

yeah i kinda sensed that because i got kinda wet and when i went to bed i masterbated and it took me 5 mins to orgasm(usually takes me 15)
so i guess
but the virgin thing im not so fond about. im tight enough as it is cuz i can't even use a tampon so i can imagine the horrific pain

[Monoxide]

i was really enjoying myself and kept looking at his huge dick . hes an average 5"


5 inch wouldn't be considered a "huge" dick lol. more Like under the average.

but ya it will hurt just a little, but considering you can't even fit a tampon.. well... erm.. Good luck. You might want to wait a little longer until you have sex.

[ackmedsgirl666]

yeah i suppose your right. i mean my goal was to wait for marriage and me and him want to get married but it might not happen depends on if he rele wants to right?
i am really into him and we are tired of just fondling and making out and want to take it to the next level and i feel like i'm ready.. how do i gain the self control and list to stop thinking about it because my heart is set on doing it with him because i feel so strongly about him. ?????? what do i do?

[Monoxide]

yeah i suppose your right. i mean my goal was to wait for marriage and me and him want to get married but it might not happen depends on if he rele wants to right?
i am really into him and we are tired of just fondling and making out and want to take it to the next level and i feel like i'm ready.. how do i gain the self control and list to stop thinking about it because my heart is set on doing it with him because i feel so strongly about him. ?????? what do i do?

Well... It's up to you.. I would wait.. Maybe the only thing he wants from you is sex? Lot's of guys are like that these days =\

edit: and yes he is circumsized /facepalm

[Grey fox]

Seeing the whole head = circumcised ? - not always, the foreskin retracts when the penis is erect.

Pulsing in your vagina - shows you're really turned on

Worried about being too tight for sex - if you are turned on enough then your body will produce enough natural lubricant (which is also what makes you "wet") and coupled with a condom, this will reduce and friction and virtually eliminate any pain. Also, the lining of the vagina is smooth muscle and elastic tissue, so it is designed to stretch, after all, it's big enough to fit a baby out of!

Self control - practice, and it is very hard to achieve. Your body is telling you to go and have sex, because it is mother natures aim to make you pregnant and have lots of babies, and you can't do that without sex.

Waiting before marriage - nice thought, but unless you are really convinced that he is THE ONE, it will be years and years until you can have sex, and also you may rush into a marriage which is a mistake. Oh, and he probably won't appreciate you wanting to get married before sex unless he has similar views to you, so tread carefully on that one.

By all means wait though, 16 is barely legal.

[ackmedsgirl666]

thx for the helpful advice. i have been having alot of thought about it. there was a thread i just posted on coming out as a lesbian(he doesn't know and i don;t believe in being bi-sexual because you can either have one or the other) and i like him but i get turned on by girls also and i dunno what to do because i do rele like him alot
any suggestions???

[Grey fox]

Sounds like you are bi-sexual then.

Penises are by nature gross, and you have to be into guys to get turned on by them, so yeah, i reckon you're bi, like millions of other people.

[ackmedsgirl666]

yes because seeing his penis like i did it turned me on
but in the pastr i had a relationship with a vt member and i used to get turned on by her whenever we made out or anything so thats why i was just wundering. i mean i like brandon and all but i have become morw and more confused about myself. i mean i look like a guy and ppl automatically assume what i am
i wear my hair like a lesbian and i were rainbow colored wristbands so yeah..
kinda stuck here.....

[Grey fox]

Lol, don't commit to anything just yet, nothing worse then having to go back and change your mind over your sexuality....