Lapse in common sense, or deliberate mistake to cure craving?

[1_21Guns]

Okay, I was splitting an oreo in half (it was chocolate covered you cant just twist it, long, irrelivant story) with a very sharp knife and managed to stab myself in the hand with it, why i picked that knife in the first place, I dont know, and why I tried to split it the way I did, I still dont know. Usually i'd have the common sense to pick a blunter knife, and cut it without stabbing myself. But that time, I didn't think. With the way I cut it, it was obvious I would hurt myself. When I first did it, the fact i'd done it, didn't bother me whatsoever, anybody else surely would of paniced, I was fine, calmly went over and put a tea towel on it, and it was okay. Then the thaught that I could of hit a vein went through my mind. I was dizzy, i lent over the table, and then colapsed on the floor.

I dunno, I was just wondering if it was possible I sub-conciously deliberately do something to harm myself. Because I certainly wouldnt usually of done that.

[Amyxoxo]

This may be the case or you may have just not have been thinking, the reason you may not have reacted in such a way is because you are sort of used to it then when you thought about it like reaised that you could have done alot of damage and felt faint??
Anyways hope it is betta :) xx

[1_21Guns]

This may be the case or you may have just not have been thinking, the reason you may not have reacted in such a way is because you are sort of used to it then when you thought about it like reaised that you could have done alot of damage and felt faint??
Anyways hope it is betta :) xx

Yeah guess i'll never know the answer, and yeah I actually fainted. which is unlike me. and thanks, its okay now, just abit sore, the wound wasnt actually that big really.

[Amyxoxo]

Good good :) x

[Random Stranger]

We all do some stupid things for no real reason sometimes, I wouldn't jump straight to the idea that you were trying to hurt yourself. I can remeber doing something similar while cutting an apple before I started cutting, so there is no way it was to satisfy that sence, but it left a neat scar though. :)

Sometimes we just don't think before we do things, that simple.