indi
September 13th, 2009, 03:12 PM
Well I've been self harming for maybe a year now, maybe more, but it was never bad at first, it just started off as biting my arm hard occasionally, then scratching with broken mirror, and then it got worse to a sharpener blade.. it's been getting slightly better lately, and now it's starting to get worse again. Over the summer I overdosed and was in hospital, and was diagnosed with depression. It's got really worse in the last month especially; I just feel so alone, like I don't matter at all; I hate that I don't know what's going to happen in the future, I worry about stupid irrational things and I'm getting so close to just refusing to go to school, because I'm getting so behind in all my work and I feel as if I don't fit in with my friends and I can't be bothered trying any more. I can't stand feeling so alone, part of me just wants to isolate myself away from everyone and shut myself away, so I never have to bother trying, but the other part of me just needs a friend to talk to. If anyone wants to be friends then we can talk :) Sorry, I just needed to get all that out.