Why do i even care? =/

[1_21Guns]

right, I know that to most, this will sound crazy, that the person i'm talking about could read this, along with a handful of my friends but I dont get it.
I met somebody on here, because they contacted me because of one of my posts, we got talking and he gave me answers to things that I daren't tell or ask anybody else, he then admits to me he likes me in that way... that he couldnt get me out of his head and so on. I'll admit, I freaked. There was reason behind me doing that... but thats another story. He's so open, and it was a good wake-up call, just what I needed I guess, but his openness about his self harm out of boredom is eating at me. And now i'm begining to wonder why I even care. I wasnt and am still not sure if I like him like that, and its driving me insane.
I dont know what the point in posting this was. I dont even know what i'm asking. Just hoping somebody can try and help me understand it I guess...

[RaeNose]

I think I understand a bit.
Open people are very easy to get to know, and you met him through something that instantly provided you two with something in common. He was easy to trust, and you don't necessarily ever have to see him again. So, if you decide that you don't like each other, there's no awkward running into each other.
You also care because he cared. He didn't laugh or criticize you for your issues or questions. He was just there to listen. "We love because He loved us first." Yeah, it's a Bible verse, but it fits. You're freaking out because it almost feels like you're trapped by your will to help him, when it could just end up bringing both of you down.

[1_21Guns]

I think I understand a bit.
Open people are very easy to get to know, and you met him through something that instantly provided you two with something in common. He was easy to trust, and you don't necessarily ever have to see him again. So, if you decide that you don't like each other, there's no awkward running into each other.
You also care because he cared. He didn't laugh or criticize you for your issues or questions. He was just there to listen. "We love because He loved us first." Yeah, it's a Bible verse, but it fits. You're freaking out because it almost feels like you're trapped by your will to help him, when it could just end up bringing both of you down.

Yeah I guess so. I guess what makes this so weird, is I actually freaked because for aslong as I can remember, i've been blocking any form of feeling and emotion that envolves love. Which is the reason i've never had a crush. Thats why i'm so confused. Part of me is still thinking "whats the point, your too stupid, too ugly, he can do far better" yet the other part of me is telling that part to shut up. I remember when I sat there hoping it would just last a week, it was just something silly, but as every day goes by, it looks more and more like it isnt.

[RaeNose]

That part of yourself that's telling you that you're too stupid or too ugly really does need to shut up. :)
You are beautiful. And I can see why he likes you. You sound like a sweet, caring person, and you're so pretty.
You're allowed to crush on people, it's part of life. Refusing to care and love is no way to treat yourself.

[1_21Guns]

That part of yourself that's telling you that you're too stupid or too ugly really does need to shut up. :)
You are beautiful. And I can see why he likes you. You sound like a sweet, caring person, and you're so pretty.
You're allowed to crush on people, it's part of life. Refusing to care and love is no way to treat yourself.

yeah I know. and i know why i did that to myself. I think i'm coming away from that now. or i hope i am atleast.

[RaeNose]

Don't worry. Everything will be ok in the end; if it's not ok, it's not the end. :)

[1_21Guns]

Don't worry. Everything will be ok in the end; if it's not ok, it's not the end. :)

thanks. (: